Requested by: @UNSTOPPABLEBUH . I hope you don't mind that I decided to make this rather short! Enjoy ^.^
Scenario: Reader-Chan graduated early due to a good word from Erwin and is finally able to see Levi again at HQ and start their dating life... (Upon request, this will be angst)... however Levi quickly learns that Reader-Chan has a dark mentality just like him.
Warning: Because this is angst, it does talk about depression and mentions self-harming. (A/N: I'm always here for you guys if you need a friend!)
{Levi's Point of View}
"I was told I could find you here." I immediately lifted my head from looking down at my paperwork upon hearing a familiar voice I haven't heard in about two weeks. I was more then happy to be greeted with the face that I knew belonged with the voice, (Your name). "I haven't seen you in a while." She walked into my office, unfolding her hands and leaving back up from my door frame. Good thing I left my door open today.
I stood up for my desk and made me way in front of her. "Sorry. I should have come to visit you but I was rather busy."
She looked off to the side. "I understand. Though, I was worried you had lied when you said I was now yours." She tired to walk off to sit in one of the chairs in front of my desk but I stopped her by grabbing onto her waist and pulled her in close to me.
I placed my finger under her chin and slowly kissed her. "Do you honestly think I was lying?"
She bit her lip. "We don't know each well but I would like to get to know you better; especially since I'm now officially part of the team."
"Erwin must have put a good word in for you."
"He did. Though I should probably tell you and get this over with... part of the reason why I was worried you had lied is because I have abandonment issues."
I immediately became serious upon hearing her words. "Do you need to talk about it?"
"Not if you don't want to hear about it." She looked away and slip from my gasp as she took a seat on one of the two chairs.
I sat on the other way and made her chair face me. "Of course I want to hear about it. I want to know everything about you. Not to mention, I out of al people, can probably relate."
She sighed. "Everyone has always left me. I'm scared of being used and left behind just like my family has done to me. I have depression, insomnia, abandonment issues, and I'm paranoid as hell. I self-harm when I can't handle life and it's not healthy but it's what I do. I know it sounds like a bit much but this is me being up front and honest with you."
I weakly smiled and took her hand in my own; just now remembered that I had broke it because it was in a cast. "I understand. I'm from the underground and I've never really had a family. My dad abandoned me and my mom and then my mom does when I was very young. I've always been depressed and have insomnia and paranoia from living in the underground. It wasn't an easy life."
She tighten the grip on my hand. "I was so scared that you wouldn't understand. I feel very attracted to you and so I'm glad that we understand each other's dark side."
"Can you tell me? What it's like for you? Your depression... that is."
She sighed. "It's like I'm trapped and there's no escape. All the monsters surround me and all I can do is bury my head in my hands and knees. I get angry. I get sad. I get anxious. There are so many feelings that come with it. And because of it, I distant myself. I can't always control who I am. Sometimes I'm just sad without reason. Sometimes I'll be in such a good place but my mind will just ruin it for me. It's so hard to be happy when your brain doesn't want you to be."
"And then people don't understand." I chimed in. "They don't understand that you don't mean to feel the way you feel."
"You just feel it." We both spoke at the same time and looked up at each other to chuckle.
"Thank you for understanding. It means a lot and I would say that it means more than you'll get know but something tells me that you do know."
I nodded. "Now that you're here. I'm not letting you out of my sight. How does dinner sound? Tonight? I'll take you out somewhere. Today was a lazy day anyway."
(Your name) nodded. "Sounds like a plan, Levi."
I smiled upon hearing her call me by my first name. This was good. This was going to be a good thing. For the both of us. Forever.
I guess that even though we're humanities strongest male and female, we have major flaws And weaknesses. That's what makes us human.
