Coming to realize that I had just shared a special moment with my soulmate, left me speechless. The fact that I am the only one who knows the truth, cut deeply into my heart and twisted it. How can I explain to her what the experience we just shared was? She will not believe me, therefore she will miss out on the joy of the spiritual awakening.
I held back the tears that threatened to spill forth, she is not ready to know the truth. It would be too much for her to handle right now. I choked back a sob and pulled away from her, leaving her questioning my behavior. What would happen if she does not want to accept my love? If she denies me and herself this, then the connection would eventually fail. When we say the spiritual vows, we both have to feel the love, one cannot not love less than the other, it must be equal, or run the risk of the connection failing.
I sighed knowing that this might be impossible, given the fact that we started off on the wrong foot. I have alot of work to do to prove to her that we are soulmates. I too cannot believe that this has happened to me. fifteen minutes ago I desired Bella, as a man desires a woman sexually, but during the connection, love slammed into me and left me breathless. How can I go from lusting after her to loving her? Is this even real?
My eyes met hers and I stopped breathing. My spiritual self sees her soul. It is longing to awaken and connect, but her ignorance denies it. Laying next to her, I reach out and caress her beautiful face. Overwhelmed with the feeling of love, I pull her into my arms and hold her tight. I must know what she is thinking. I calmed my beating heart and tuned in her mind and listened.
Her mind was troubled by my actions. She thinks I hold her so because I am grateful that she gave herself to me. She thinks that I will leave her now that I got from her what I wanted. I can feel her body stiffen, she regrets giving herself to me. I must do something quick to help her realize my true feelings.
I lowered my head and kissed every inch of her beautiful face, before I devoured her lips. My hands caressed her firm round breasts and I just want to scream out loud how much I love her!. Sometimes having this power inside me is not a good thing! I am hurting now and know not how to make the pain go away. She is about to reject me, and I braced myself for the hurt that I will feel.
"Get off me!" she yelled as she pushed me away from her. "Don't ever touch me again!"
There were tears in her eyes as she mouthed those ugly words. The pain of rejection, even though I know why she is behaving in this manner, it still hurts. Me, the mighty savior of the world, feeling hurt and rejected.
"Stop using my body for your own pleasure! My mother did not raise me to sleep around with men I hardly know." she hissed.
My heart sunk, knowing that she will not love me any time soon. I jumped out of bed and threw on my kilt and stalked out of the cabin. I must think of a plan, but first I will have to wine her and dine her to get on her good side. My erection was throbbing, wanting desperately to be inside her again. I started running to let go of my frustration. I ran twenty miles in three minutes, with my super speed, and when I stopped, I opened my mouth and howled loudly, releasing all my tension out in the wind.
I stayed here in this spot for a couple of hours, and relaxed my troubled thoughts. I want to unwind my pain and set myself free. I know that soon the Council will call on me and I will have to face them. I sighed already knowing how hard it will be for me to see them. I have shamed my name and have deeply regretted my actions, but I knew in my heart that I would have done ecactly the same again if it meant saving my parents. As I tuned in to read Bella's mind again, my heart stopped beating for a second. She was in alot of pain. I picked up speed and raced back to be with her and help her overcome her pain.
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