It is almost evening, and I have been hiding in my private library. No one knows I am here. I do not have the balls to show my face to my family, and especially Elizabeth. The guilt is eating me up to a point that I have created a selfmade pain in my gut and it is unbearable. How can I look into the eyes of my soulmate after what I have done. How can I keep this a secret from her. Taking my life would be easier.
I am choked up with sobs, the tears have not stopped since I have come back home. I sold myself to a fairy! The worst part about it all is that I actually enjoyed making love to her. Even though it was the magic that had me hypnotized, I still feel that Elizabeth deserves better. I have missed her terribly, and my son, a small bundle of joy, when he grows up and finds out what I have done, will he forgive me? Will I ever forgive myself?
I beat my chest with my fists, doubling up with pain, but I felt it wasnt enough, then I glanced at the knife that I had put on the floor next to me and I grabbed the shiney knife and stabbed my right thigh, pushing the knife as far down as it can go. Pain surged through my leg and I closed my eyes tight and accepted the pain as punishment to myself. Blood ouzed out from the wound and glided down my thigh.
I pulled the knife out with one swift movement and ignoring the pain that burst throughout my leg, I held the knife with both hands and pointed it at my heart.
Stop! think of your son, and Elizabeth, you will hurt them even more if you do this! The voice yelled.
My eyes flew open and I dropped the knife to the stone floor. I then curled up in a fetus position and cried my heart out. Me, the mighty warrior, the Prince of Druids, crying like a little baby!
AUTHORS NOTE: I still dont know if Elizabeth should find out. Please everyone help me with this, im stuck!!!! vote and comment. thank you very much. xoxoxoxoxo
