Fame | Shawn Mendes

Chapter 51; Portland & Talk

"Alright, place your stuff in your room and come to the lobby afterwards everyone is meeting in ten to go and eat together. I can't wait to see them again," Andre grinned and entered the room next to mine.

Lauren shook her head and followed him.

"I'm hungry," Milo whined as I entered our hotel room after the boys. "I know, I am too. We'll grab something to eat after we place our stuff here and change into something other than sweatpants."

I looked at the room and noticed it had two beds instead of one like Mark had told me but it was probably better like this so the boys can share a bed while I have my own space.

I opened my suitcase and grabbed a pair of jeans and a plain white t-shirt. Before I went into the bathroom I put some music on since the boys loved music as much as I did.

I quickly changed before I handed the boys their clothes and helping them to change into them. It took longer than expected so we quickly put our shoes on and left the room.

My heart was beating so fast as we got into the elevator. I'm going to see him again after almost three weeks and I don't know how it will go.

I felt someone tuck on my jeans and I looked down to see Milo holding his arms up, obviously wanting me to carry him. I picked him up with a chuckle and placed him on my hip.

The elevator doors opened and immediately spotted a group of guys and Lauren in the middle of the lobby.

"Didn't I tell you ten minutes? I'm hungry how could you let me wait?" Andre asked over dramatically.

"We had to change our clothes. Calm down."

Milo stretched his arms out towards Andre who placed him on his shoulders. Milo started giggling as Andre ran around us, pretending to be an animal.

"I missed you!" Mike said and wrapped me into a hug.

"I wish I could say the same thing," I said, obviously joking.

"That really hurt," he pouted, making me laugh.

I hugged Josiah, Geoff, Andrew and Theo who had taken an earlier flight with the band yesterday. I saw Shawn not paying attention to me at all as he was now talking to Asher.

"Alright, everyone ready to go?" Andrew asked and we all nodded so we followed him outside the hotel and got into two cabs that were waiting for us.

I got into the car right after Theo and took a seat next to him. Geoff, Josiah & Milo joined us while Lauren, Andre, Shawn, Asher, Mike & Andrew got into the other car.

I put Milo's seat belt on before leaning back in my own seat. I felt everyone's eyes on me since we had two rows that were facing each other. I was driving with my back to the front of the car and Theo was on my left while Geoff was on my right and Josiah & Milo in front of us.

"What?" I asked kinda annoyed by the stares.

"What happened between you & Shawn? C'mon you can tell us," Josiah said, leaning forwards clearly being interested in that subject.

"Like I said. Nothing."

"Liar liar pants on fire," Theo said teasingly.

"Geez, guys. It's none of your business," I groaned taking out my phone and pretending to do something on it.

"We all know you're just trying to avoid the subject by looking at your phone," Geoff pointed out. Damn it. I pretended not to hear him so I went on Instagram and liked some pictures.

"They probably had a fight," I heard Josiah saying.

"About what, though?" Theo asked and I didn't have to look to know that he had his thinking face on. "Maybe they fought over food?" Milo said, making the guys laugh and me smile.

"It is indeed possible."

A few minutes later we arrived at the restaurant. I took a seat in between Milo & Asher and in front of Lauren who sat beside Andre & Theo. Thank god, Shawn was not in sight because he sat on the other hand on the same side I was seated.

Everyone made conversation while I was trying to figure out how to approach Shawn. I can't just never talk to him again so I had to do something.

We got our food and I ordered pizza as usual because when I'm at a restaurant or something and they have pizza then I can't just order anything else. My love for pizza was enormous as well as for chicken nuggets.

"Mila?"

"Huh?" I asked, snapping out of my trance as I looked to my right where Asher was seated.

"I'm full," Asher told me, pushing his plate away from him.

"That's okay."

Soon, everyone had finished their food and we decided to get back to the hotel. I was really exhausted and all I wanted to do was sleep but I needed to know if Shawn was mad at me.

When we arrived at the hotel we all separated and went to our hotel rooms which were all on the same floor. I saw Shawn entering his hotel room just three rooms down on the other side.

I opened the door to our room and the three of us all changed into our pyjamas and got ready for bed. It didn't take long until the boys were asleep and so I laid in my bed thinking about what I should do know.

Just like many times before I didn't think before acting and so I stood in front of Shawn's hotel room just a minute later. I knocked and my heart was beating so loud I was scared it would echo through the entire hallway.

I heard shuffling from the other side of the door and a few seconds later the door opened and I was face to face with Shawn.

"Yea?" he asked so casual that it made me think that he already forgot anything ever happened.

"Can we talk?" I asked.

He sighed but stepped away from the door and let me in. I stood awkwardly in the room as he sat on his bed and waited for me to say something.

"I'm sorry for ignoring you," I apologized, looking at the floor so I didn't have to see his reaction. "It was very childish of you to ignore me," he said.

"I know, it's just- I don't know, really. I was scared, I guess," I admitted, looking at everything but him.

"Scared of what?"

"Of loosing you as a friend."

It was quiet for a while and that made everything a lot more awkward. I didn't know what was going on in his mind and why he wasn't saying anything but I do know that I should've rather stayed in my bed.

"Look, I'm sorry alright? We can just pretend nothing happened whatever you want but I'm really exhausted and I need to sleep," I said frustrated with the whole situation.

"Shawn!" I said, raising my voice since he wasn't talking.

Maybe he fell asleep with his eyes open?

"Fine. Nothing ever happened," I said and literally sprinted out of the room to avoid a fight or wherever this was going. I shut the door and went to my own room, laying under the sheets and cuddling with a pillow like I always do.

It didn't take me long to calm myself down so a few minutes later I was fast asleep.

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I can't believe Harry's coming here soon and I don't have Tickets for this year. 😭