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Please if you ever feel like suicide or hurting yourself please inbox me I will talk to you! I’ve been there and i understand you dont need to do it you can make it though I promise! So please talk to me if you need to! Also leave some suggestions and I’ll try to do them. I am in school so it might take me a bit to get to them but ill try. Thanks so much for reading hope you enjoy this!!!
Here is Zayn’s!
You logged into your school account and looked at your grades you notice that it says you have a 44% in this class but how? You had done everything you were supposed to and you thought you did it well. Being a perfectionist was hard but not so hard that you deserved a 44%. Maybe everyone was right maybe you were stupid. Thats all you had been hearing from everyone lately. Your stupid, your fat, no one cares. And some people would even go at far as to tell you that Zayn just wanted to be done with you that you were just a quick replacement after him an Perrie broke up. You really didn't know what to believe anymore. Zayn was away on tour and it was hard because he wouldn't be back for another month. You had called him earlier that day and he wasn't able to talk getting off the phone quickly because he had “something to do.” Well I guess everyone is more important then I am is what you thought. Thats it you thought. School sucks I cant even get good grades, Zayn really doesn't care about me and since no one in my class will even talk to me I guess everyone is better off without me. You went to the kitchen pulled out a pen and paper and wrote your suicide letter.
Dear Zayn,
I love you so much but I guess everyone else is more important. I want you to know that its okay to move on and that your fan’s love you. They never accepted me but thats okay I understand. Please tell my family that I loved them even if they don’t really care about me anymore. It had to be this way. I have some money saved up that will pay for a funeral but please don’t be upset everyone is better off without me. Im sorry.
With Love,
(Y/N)
Then you walked upstairs and filled the tub with water. As you listened to the water flow into the tub you thought about all the good times you had had with Zayn. Like when he took you to the amusement park and you rode the kiddy rides because Zayn’s afraid of heights. It was childish but it was so much fun. Or the time he took you to dinner and food got everywhere because he made you laugh so hard that food was flying and the manager kicked you two out. You started crying but decided this was for the best. You shut the water off and got in. Putting your head under the water and just sinking in. You cleared your mind and just let yourself go. You could feel everything getting hazy and your lungs burned wanting oxygen but you were determined and finally you started to fade and everything went black.
*Zayn’s POV*
I’m so excited to see (Y/N)! I decided to come home for my week off because I missed her so much. I love being on tour but sometimes I just need my girl. Maybe she can come with me for a bit that would be so great.
*Normal POV*
Zayn walked in the house and looked around seeing it clean and tidy. He walked to the kitchen and saw the note that you had left and he read it. Freaking out he started yelling your name and running around the house.
*Zayn’s POV*
Y/N, Y/N, where are you babe answer me. Y/N!!!
He ran into the bathroom and saw you in the tub he pulled you out. You weren't breathing. Zayn started CPR and while he was doing CPR he called 911 and put it on speaker phone so that he could still do CPR. Zayn told the women on the other line where you were and they said to continue CPR till they got there.
Y/N!!! BREATH, YOU HAVE TO BREATH he yelled scared. Finally after what seemed like forever you started to breath coughing up water. Zayn started crying and you were still unconscious but at least you were breathing.
The paramedics arrived and took you from Zayn. They loaded you into the ambulance and took you to the hospital.
When you got to the hospital they checked to make sure that everything was okay and when the determined that it was they put you in a room to wait for you to wake up. Zayn called the boys crying and they said they would be on there way shortly.
Finally you opened your eyes. You looked at Zayn whose eyes were bloodshot from crying so much.
“Zayn” you said.
He looked at you and said “I’m sorry Y/N Im such a horrible boyfriend. Im sorry I made you do this. I love you and I can’t live without you. Please please don't leave me. Im so sorry Ill make…….”
You cut him off “No Zayn you’ve been a great boyfriend life just got so complicated and I guess I wasn't able to see what was right in front of me. Please will you lay with me.”
He climbed into bed next to you just holding you so that you knew he was there.
Later the boys showed up and let you know how much you meant to them so that you would never even think of doing this again.
Zayn left to go make a phone call while the boys stayed with you and played a game.
Zayn walked in and said “I have an announcement. When we leave to go back on tour Y/N will be coming with us. You can do your college online babe and so you are coming with us.”
This made you so happy and from then on you knew he loved you and that everything would be okay.
p.s.
You called your teacher and she corrected your grade she messed up putting your grade in and you really had a 100%! Way to go!!!
:)
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Brye <3
