Hey sorry it took me so long to update. I had oral surgery this week and so I've been out of it for a while. So here is an update! As always you can come talk to me if you ever need to! Love you!
Today was another horrible day. The last week seemed to be made up entirely of horrible days. You had been trying so hard to refrain from self harm but today you were one rude comment away from losing it and giving in. You finally made it home after a challenging day at work. You were yelled at and told that anything you said didn't matter. You knew that you were only doing your job but at the same time it felt like nothing you did made any sense. Right after you got home you got a call from one of your clients. They told you that nothing you did pleased them and you would have to redo everything that had taken you a month to do all over again. You just couldn't take it. You snapped. If I can't be good enough for anyone else then I'm not good enough for me either, you thought. You ran to your room and pulled out your razor blade. I have to punish myself because Ill never learn if I don't. So with that thought you made a few cuts. But that didn't satisfy you so you went crazy with the blade. When you finally stopped your arm looked like a checker board. Honestly you didn't even feel any pain in your arm. You just were so upset. You laid there crying and bleeding. You didn't hear the door open downstairs.
Niall called out to you Y/N! Babe I'm home! Want to go out to dinner? But you didnt hear him. You were to caught up in your thoughts that you were a failure.
After not getting a response from you Niall ran up the stairs. Babe? Y/N? Where are you? Finally Niall came to the bathroom and found you lying on the floor with blood around your wrist and a puddle of tears.
Oh babe. Honey. What happened? I thought you were doing so well.
Finally you looked at him. "Niall, Im not enough. Im a complete failure. It's not just me that sees it. Even my clients see it. im so sorry"
"Baby you aren't a failure. You are nowhere near a failure." Niall says as he takes a towel and wraps it around your wrist. At this point Niall has you on his lap.
Niall starts singing Little Things to you. Babe you are more than enough. I dont care what anyone says. Even you babe. I will tell you as many times as it takes for you to get it into your beautiful head that you are not a failure and that you are enough. I love you with all my heart.
I love you too Niall.
"How about we get you all cleaned up and then Ill have the boys pick up some Nandos and we can all have a movie snuggle night? How does that sound?"
Oh Niall that sounds perfect! Thank you babe!
"And Y/N never do this again. Call me or one of the lads. We will always be here for you. Forever and Always. Till the end."
I can promise you that Niall!
Thank you babe
Niall called the boys and they all came over and gave you a hug. The boys all showed you that you mean the world to them and they would always be there for you.
