Don't Judge Me (under extreme EDITING)

Chapter 12

De'marcus (Mars) POV

So I've been I this fucked up, ass smelling jail all night and day. They haven't let me get my phone call yet. This jail is full of a bunch of red neck racist cops. They have done nothing but treat me wrong and I am so close to snapping and killing all they asses man. But I know that I have to act all proper and respectful so they can pull any slick shit on me. I can tell I'm gonna be in here for a while and I'm going crazy for my white girl. I'm having some serious withdrawals. I'm shaking and scratching and I can tell my eyes are red. The good thing is if they take a drug test my system will be clean. The jailer comes to the bars and says

Jailer-"aye lil nigger you can come make your phone call now"(said in a deep country accent)

See this the shit I'm talking about. Wait till I get out this jail my ass gone be right back in, trust and believe. I didn't say shit to him, I got up off the bed and walked out of my cell. He dragged me by my arm down the hall to the phone. I don't know how much more of this I can take, I mean I've been to jail before but this right, nah I can do without. I picked up the phone and called my baby's number. I waited three rings and then she picked up and I heard my baby girls voice. Well I mean she BAE she just don't know it yet.

Nadia-"hello?"

Me-"hey baby girl what you doing?"

She takes a long pause so I know she's blushing. I think it's cute how I can make her blush even when I'm locked up, that shit crazy.

Nadia-"well right now I'm looking through you records to see if they have anything on you, I just finished sorting some information and evidence from last night so I can get you out of there,....."

She was just going on, I wandered off to thinking how can I find someone like her, I mean she's going out of her way for me. She does it all the time but yet I miss treat her. I'm a dumb ass for that, ima get myself clean and together for her. I mean I at least owe her that. Ima get my life straight so I can marry her and let her have my babies and grow old together. life goals man.

When I get out of my thoughts she still talking about what she's doing for me so I stop her.

Me-"Nadia I need you to do something for me ma"

Nadia-"what do you need Dede" i her giggle after saying that. Ima let her slide with that one. I just let out a low chuckle.

Me-"look, it's late I want you to go to sleep. Fet some rest, stop worrying about me I'm good ma, just focus on you right now. I don't need you stressed out over this bullshit. You know what tomorrow I want you to go to our spot and go to the bank and go treat yourself. Have a girls day out, spend all of that money if you want. You have done enough, and I thank you for that sweetheart. Just promise me that you will pamper yourself and stop worrying about me?"

Nadia- I hear her sigh "but Deven (she meant to do that because they done want the people to know their names) it's hard being with out you I just want you back home."

Jailer - "1 minute left boy"

Me-"I got to go sweetheart but just do it ok? I love you, see you soon nana."

Nadia-"alright I love you too"

Me-"bye love"

Nadia-mumbles "bye"

Once I'm back in my cell I just lay on my bed and think about life. I've done some fucked up stuff. I know people have judged me for it but it's gotten to the point that I don't care. When I was little I was an out cast, I didn't do things that other people did and people would judge me and put me down. They would also judge me from my illnesses and think I was this retarded kid but in reality I was, well am smart as hell. People judge me by how I look and think I don't care about my grades or don't think I want to go anywhere in life but the streets. But that's not true, I want to go to college get at least my masters degree and own my own business. People just love to judge a book by its cover, I make straight A's I have never gone below a B in my life. The constant judge meant use to hurt me so much I tried to commit suicide once. When people look at me they see this hard core thug that doesn't give two shits about the world but on the inside, I'm insecure and paranoid. I was raped by my step farther repeatedly, beaten, teased and many other things. That's why I have the issue I deal with now. I think I love and connect with Nadia so much because we have gone through the same things in life, accept for the raping. I wear a smile on my face everyday to cut out the pain. I turned to drugs to cover up the pain, it worked at first then not so much. It got to the point where it was just a habit I loved the feeling of the drugs rushing through my body and feeling that high. But I know I have to stop, it's slowly killing me and turning me against the people that I love. I have a very small circle, I don't trust many people. Sean and Nadia are my best friends. I see Jeremiah as an older brother. La'zelle and Shardanae are like my sisters. I met Sean in elementary school in 1st grade, he was the only kid who didn't pick on me. Then I met Jeremiah and Nadia. I met Shardanae and La'zelle through Nadia. They my day ones. So I tell yall this because, I know all yall people reading this was calling me an ass whole and shit for the stuff I did. Mmmhmm I saw them comments(said in a gay voice) but yeah don't judge me until you know the full story loves, yes ik I fucked up but just give me a lil slack, I'm fucked up in the head you guys. But story time is over ima take my ass to sleep on this rock the call a bed in this shit hole, goodnight sweet dreams.

Jeremiah POV

You boy finally got a POV, yaaassss hunty! But what's up yall? How you been? You not gone answer.... Oh I see how it is. Yall just mad cause yall ain't as fine as me! I'm a fine I mean FINE ass motherfuka. Let me stop, but yeah I just got back from the doctor and I just got some bad news. They found stage 3 cancer in my lungs. They don't know how long I'm gonna live they said 3 months tops. Im like damn! But ima live it up! That's all I can do, but I'm already good with the lord I go to church in Sunday's so I mean I should be good with that. Cause yo boy not tryna go to hell when he die, ima tryna be up there with my home skillet biscuit Jesus and my day one God. So yeah. I don't know when or how ima gonna tell everyone. I'm not really scared to die, I ready I guess. If it's my time to go, then it's my time.

I'm on my way to pick up La'zelle ole fine ass. Yes I'm way older than her but I mean it's whatever. I'm not gone pressure her to do anything she doesn't want to do, we just gotta keep it on the DL so I don't get locked up. I meani don't want to die in jail. It's not that big of an age difference she just turned 17 and I'm 21 (what's 9+10 ...21, You Stupid! I could help it😋) it's just 4 years. But once she turn 18 we finna turn up, well if I'm still here. I pull up to her house and text her to tell her to come outside. I throw my medicine in the back seat. She comes out looking fine as hell! (Their outfits on the side) All her curve were showing and that ASS was looking so nice it just melted my heart. (go read the characters in the beginning of the book! I added La'zelle's description in there! She is NOT as skinny as keke Palmer, think of her shape as nicki minaj) I planed on taking her to go go kart riding and skating. Then out to eat idk where, she can pick, that girl love her some food! I get out the car and hug her then open the door so she can get in. Ince she is in safely I close it and jog over to my side. I hop in and she ask me where we going I just say sit back and relax. This is gonna be a fun night. I pull up to the go karting place and she goes crazy. She jumps out the car and drags me into the building. We pick our cars and get started i wine 5 times and she won once, only because she spun me out. I'm not one of those guys who let they girl win, I think not! Shit ima treat you like you one of my niggas. We go over to Skate a way. We
we're skating together and playing around until I could not breath, I told her I would be back. I went out to my car and took my medicine and use the inhaler they gave me to use. It hit me in that moment that you this is serious. I went back in the building and but a smile on my face. I wasn't up to going to dinner anymore so I just told her let's have a movie night and order pizza. We went back to my house and joked around, play fighting, eat hella food then she fell asleep in my arms.
I think I'm falling for this girl, hard and fast. I just don't want to hurt her with this whole cancer thing. What the hell should I do? Do I cut it off, or keep it going? This shit is hurting my brain I'm going to sleep. I just feel complete with her here in my arms.

So what do you think about Mars? Is he still a bad guy?

Poor Jeremiah :(
Is he gonna make it? What's gonna happen with him and La'zelle?

Do you like them as a couple or nah?

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