OUR SECRET || JAEYONG

Chapter 12 stop making me confused

Jaehyun still loved him despite of everything that had happened. He had gotten rejected and heartbroken but that didn't matter. His feelings had just grown stronger after not having been able to look at him or talk to him for some time.

Taeyong was laying on the same bed with him. He was surprised at first when he had opened his eyes but not in a bad way. He liked it when Taeyong was this close to him. He was able to look at him as long as he wanted to.

He didn't blame the elder for hurting him. He blamed himself for being so weak for him. Taeyong didn't do anything but be his charming self. He kept looking at the sleeping Taeyong and studying his face. When he now had a chance to look at him like this, he couldn't stop himself. He's really beautiful. Is he even real?

He pulled his hand under the covers and caressed Taeyong's hair. The light coming from between the curtains made his hair shine prettily. Yes, he is so real.

He then moved his fingers on Taeyong's cheek. His skin is so soft too. Why is he so perfect?

If Taeyong were to wake up now bad things would happen. He'd freak out and think Jaehyun was a creep looking at the people sleeping. Why was he even here on his bed? Taeyong's bed was just a few steps to the other direction. Did he drink? Did he know where he was?

Taeyong didn't even stir in his sleep when Jaehyun kept caressing his face. He was in a deep sleep. Jaehyun lifted his head and supported it with his free hand. He got then closer to Taeyong.

I want to kiss him. Would he wake up? He's in deep sleep so... He really wanted to feel the others lips again. He didn't wake up from the touch on his hair and face so he wouldn't wake up from the peck on his lips, right? Jaehyun touched the elder's lips lightly with his fingers. He then kissed him on the cheek and pulled back fast to see if something had happened. No reaction.

He'd never find out about this either way.

Jaehyun pecked him on the lips, his other hand on Taeyong's cheek. The kiss was soft and short. When he pulled away and opened his eyes, he was met by pair of eyes looking at him. Jaehyun had never expected that and he tried to back away immediately but was stopped by an arm around his neck.

Taeyong pulled him back to the kiss and closed his eyes. Jaehyun had never expected that either but when he felt Taeyong's lips moving on his, he closed his eyes too and kissed him back just as much.

The gentle kiss had fast become fierce. Jaehyun moved to on top of Taeyong changing for a better position. It was everything Jaehyun had ever imagined but he wanted more. He bit and licked the elder's lips and tried to deepen the kiss. After a while Taeyong obeyed and parted his lips a bit for Jaehyun to slide his tongue in. He swirled his tongue in the elder's cavern and tried to pull him even more closer. He felt like his heart could explode at any moment because he was feeling too much. His heart was beating so fast and he felt that Taeyong's did too. It made him more daring.

Taeyong was a moaning mess now. Jaehyun put his other hand under the elder's shirt and started caressing his skin. After a while he pulled away from the kiss and looked at Taeyong. His face was all flushed and his lips swollen and red. He wanted to make him a bigger mess.

He is mine now.

Taeyong kept his eyes closed. He did nothing to stop Jaehyun so he took that as a sign to continue. He began kissing Taeyong's neck first lightly but then he sucked it at some place. That caused the elder to let out a loud moan. Hearing that he began sucking the same spot more.

At the moment Jaehyun didn't think about the consequences. His mind was only about Taeyong. He didn't even notice that he had accidentally left a hickey on Taeyong's neck.

"Jaehyun. Stop." Suddenly, he heard Taeyong's breathy voice and he was pushed away. All the good moments will always come to end at some point.

"Wait-" Taeyong had gotten up from the bed and walked fast out of the room. It wouldn't be a good thing to follow after him. He didn't want to cause a scene and he didn't know what he'd want to say to him if he went after him. Instead he sat on the bed and stared at the door.

What had that been all about? He was confused. Taeyong had been the one to kiss him. He could've just left when he woke up but instead he kissed him. Now he felt hopeful but hurt after Taeyong had ran away. His heart couldn't calm down. Did he think it was a mistake and run away?

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Taeyong had locked himself in the bathroom. Everything had happened so fast, he didn't even know himself what he had been thinking. It wasn't a good idea to kiss him like that. Why did I even kiss him? I just felt like kissing him. Do I like him? I can't...

Taeyong had woken up when he had felt something on his lips. He knew Jaehyun hadn't meant for him to wake up since he looked very surprised when he had realised that he had woken up him.

Before he ran away he had felt something...weird. If that hadn't happened he didn't know how far they would have gone. How did they even get in that situation? It was his own fault, he knew it.

His heart couldn't stop beating so fast and his breathing was unstable. He looked at himself through the mirror: he was a mess. And on top of that he noticed a hickey on his neck. He touched the place with his fingers. He could still feel Jaehyun's hands all over him and his lips on his neck. It had felt good but now he was scared. What if someone saw that on his neck? How could he explain it?

That bastard! Now I'm going to have a hard time hiding this too.

Taeyong went to shower to cool his heart and body heat down. He didn't bring change of clothes because he had been in a hurry but he didn't want to go back soon to get them either.

What should I do with that hickey?
His make up bag was in the bedroom so he didn't have make up to cover it. He couldn't put a bandage on it either, it would look weird. Who does that anyways? If I only wear a towel I could hide the mark with my clothes on my shoulder until I get to the bedroom. It could work.

He was watching himself through the mirror after the shower. His face wasn't that red anymore but his heart hadn't calmed down. Taeyong placed his hand on his chest. What's wrong with my heart?