OUR SECRET || JAEYONG

Chapter 7 you're so cold

When Jaehyun came back to his seat, Taeyong was sleeping again. It was good since he didn't want Taeyong to see him like that, cheeks all flushed. He had washed his face with cold water many times but it didn't help at all. It was his heart what needed the cold water.

Had Taeyong even noticed that he had leaned on Jaehyun's shoulder or what? Jaehyun would be relieved if that was the case. But then again, he was the only one of them who was affected by it this much. Taeyong was having a peaceful sleep while he couldn't calm his heart down.

Jaehyun looked to his side where Taeyong was sleeping. His hair was covering his eyes too much and Jaehyun suddenly wanted to remove his hair from covering his eyes. He looked around quickly, no one was looking. Jaehyun lifted his hand and touched his red hair. It was soft just like he remembered. Why does he make me feel like this?

What is he doing? Why is Jaehyun touching my hair? Taeyong had pretended to be sleeping when Jaehyun got back. He didn't want to have awkward conversation. He knew Jaehyun was uncomfortable around him and had lied to him earlier when he had said he wasn't. It wasn't likely for Jaehyun to lie and now it bothered him. Why would Jaehyun lie to him like that? He was hurt.

Now he was confused as Jaehyun was touching his hair. Does he do this often? To everyone else too? The feeling on his hair stopped. Jaehyun had taken his hand off his hair and probably turned to other way. Taeyong heard him sigh. That was the last thing he remembered before he fell asleep again.

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They had now arrived in Kiev, Ukraine. It was dark but the snow everywhere made everything seem brighter. Snow looked soft but the weather was cold, much more colder than in Seoul.

Jaehyun and the rest of the NCT were now in the car driving to hotel. It was night and they would have schedule tomorrow morning. They still had few hours to sleep once they arrived in hotel. Jaehyun was tired, all because of Taeyong.

The streets of Kiev looked so beautiful covered in snow. Jaehyun couldn't wait to see the view in daylight. It would look so magical. He would want to take pictures of Taeyong with that view only if they were in speaking terms. He was so photogenic.

Jaehyun and Taeyong hadn't talked again. Both from a different reasons: Jaehyun couldn't look Taeyong in the eye because he was scared that his feelings for the red head would show on his face and Taeyong was hurt by Jaehyun lying to him and confused about the hair touching thingy.

They now arrived in the hotel. Jaehyun was relieved he didn't have to share a room alone with Taeyong as Lucas was with them too. It was good everyone was tired, good excuse not having to talk to anyone.

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Time skip to next evening

"Taeyong hyung is really handsome today. Red hair really suits him well." Jaehyun glanced at Doyoung who was praising his hyung in loud voice. Jaehyun hadn't been following their conversation but when Taeyong was mentioned, he turned his attention to it. Doyoung was probably drunk by now to even realise what he is saying. After the first day of filming they came to eat in a local restaurant. The food was so different here but still good.

"Yeah it's easy to tell where he is going. His hair could be seen from the moon."

"Yah Lucas, keep your mouth shut if you don't have anything else than disrespectful things to say." Now Doyoung was scolding Lucas. Taeyong didn't even look at the two. He had been odd quiet since they came here to eat. He was sitting on the opposite side of Jaehyun but hadn't looked at him even once. They were quietly drinking and eating when everyone else was having the time of their life.

"You both shut up now or go somewhere else to argue about my hair."

"Wow someone has been drinking too much." All the eyes, except Jaehyun's, were now on Taeyong.

"I am not drunk." He sure is. He can't stand hearing or seeing anyone arguing when he has been drinking and you should not annoy the drunk Taeyong. Jaehyun almost smiled at his thoughts but didn't allow himself to.

"Yeah whatever you say." Mark stated. Now they were laughing and making fun of him. Taeyong was angry at them.

After some time Jaehyun couldn't be in this noise anymore. He wanted to go somewhere else where was peaceful. Where was no Taeyong. "I'm leaving." Then he stood up and went to find a restroom. He didn't care if anyone even heard him.

Earlier today when they were filming Jaehyun had looked at Taeyong. He was just so handsome and beautiful and lovable at the same time and Jaehyun couldn't stop himself from staring. He didn't regret it until he saw Taeyong hugging other members and laughing with them. He was jealous and he hated being so weak. Weak for Taeyong.

Taeyong hadn't even tried to start a conversation with him. Was there something he had missed? He had thought Taeyong would try to talk to him after their discussion in the plane was interrupted by particular person. It almost felt like Taeyong was avoiding him but he couldn't be sure since he was also avoiding him. Why would he be avoiding me?

Jaehyun was now walking around in the restroom and thinking. He maybe drank too much. He couldn't think properly.

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Should I go after him? I really need to know why he is lying to me and avoiding me. It would be perfect chance to talk in private. Others wouldn't interrupt them. They wouldn't even realise anyone gone.

Taeyong was hesitating. He was scared of the answers he might get. What if Jaehyun really was avoiding him because he couldn't accept the fact that he was now different? Yeah, or course it would be a huge shock to find out about your friend's hard past and different kind of personality and above all of that find out about him being into men. Jaehyun had seemed so calm when he was telling him the story so Taeyong hadn't put much thought to what Jaehyun would really think. He had never thought about it in Jaehyun's perspective. What if he is actually disgusted with me? He had probably freaked out when I had leaned on him in the plane. But what about that touching hair thing? What did that mean? Yes, Taeyong needed to go after him. He had too many unanswered questions.

He left the room quietly and started to look around. Where would he go if he was in Jaehyun's place? He couldn't have left the restaurant as they came here together and would leave together too. Restroom?

Taeyong opened the restroom door slowly. He was nervous. Why was he so nervous? He was only scared of the answer he might get, right? Jaehyun was there. He was walking around and seemed to be deep in thoughts. He didn't even notice Taeyong who was now standing few meters from him.

"Jaehyun?" he called causing Jaehyun to jump a bit at the sudden voice and turn around.

"Jaehyun I want to talk about something...and I think you already know what it is about." Jaehyun was looking in his eyes for the first time today. He was a blank expression and Taeyong couldn't tell what the other was thinking. He hated it.

"What is it?" His voice sounds so cold. He looks so irritated for some reason. Taeyong looked down. While he was thinking hard where he should begin, Jaehyun took a few steps closer to him.

"Jaehyun why-" Taeyong couldn't finish his question. He had raised his head and found Jaehyun standing so close to him. How did that happen? Just a second ago he was standing on the other side of the room. He looked in Jaehyun's eyes. What is this look on him? What is he thinking?

All Taeyong's thought were interrupted when Jaehyun suddenly kissed him on the lips.

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//Important:
From this day forward I'm updating every other day. I'm sorry, I need more time to write a chapter (things become more complicated in the story) and I don't want to update anything in a rush. I usually read the chapter at least twice again before updating and that takes time.