OUR SECRET || JAEYONG

Chapter 2 mistake?

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Taeyong locked himself in the bathroom. He didn't know what he would say if Jaehyun had followed him. He needed time to clear his thoughts. He looked the reflection of himself on the mirror face flushed red and his lips even more red. He was still shivering after the kiss.

How can I be this stupid? How can I just kiss a dear friend of mine without any warning? I ruined everything. Now he's gonna be all disgusted with me and he'll tell everyone. I ruined everything. Taeyong couldn't stop these scary thought from invading his mind. For a moment he just wanted to disappear.

After calming down a bit he let out a long sigh and sat down on the bathroom floor. He was so tired.

At least a one good thing happened and he felt somehow relieved because of it. Taeyong now knew he was very much into boys. He couldn't think of kissing a girl like that. However, that created new problems. He was an idol. He couldn't just let everyone know that he was gay. He needed to keep it as a secret.

Taeyong felt more lost than ever before. He had solved his problem but the outcome was frightening him. His assumptions had been right, he liked boys. If he hadn't liked the kiss, then what? He couldn't even imagine it. Liking a boy, kissing a boy sounded more natural for him.

He didn't know what to do or what to tell Jaehyun about the recent events. He was feeling too many conflicted emotions at the same time. He felt sorry for Jaehyun, and he was so afraid of the future and facing Jaehyun.

He needed to tell Jaehyun the whole truth. That way Jaehyun wouldn't make any wrong conclusions. Could they go back to how they were before and just forget the thing between them ever happened?

Taeyong slept on the couch that night. He knew he needed to explain everything for Jaehyun.

Tomorrow.

"Hyung? Hyuuuung?? Wake up! Why are you sleeping on the couch? Isn't it uncomfortable?"

"HYUNG!"

Taeyong opened his eyes a bit to see two blurry faces looking down at him. "What? Who are you?" Taeyong didn't even know himself what he was saying.

"Hyung wake up!" Taeyong opened his eyes now properly and sat up. What? Did I just sleep till the morning? I don't remember when I last time had this good sleep.

"Oh, good morning Donghyuck. And Jisung."

"Wait, did you really wake up just now? Whoa, It's rare to see you here this late. You always wake up really early and go to practice." Donghyuck was speaking too much for Taeyong's liking. He couldn't focus on anything because he only woke up a minute ago.

"What time is it?" Taeyong asked yawning.

"It's wayy past 9. Everyone else left for practise long time ago. We have practise later so we—"

"WHAT? It's that late! Where's Chittaphon? I have a dance practice with him today." Taeyong was panicking. Never had he thought he could sleep this late. Despite of everything, he felt well-rested and energetic. It had been so long since he last time had a good night sleep. Above all of that, he didn't have nightmares.

Taeyong got up from the sofa and walked towards his and Jaehyun's room. "Are we the only ones here?" He turned back at the two. Please. I don't want to see him yet. Please be somewhere-