*ba dum tss* ↠ third book o' random

I'm gonna be whiney for a minute

so around this time two weeks ago I found out that ya boi likes me back. we spent the week talking off and on. however, I felt like he was disinterested in our conversations. so I asked J what to do and he told me to just go and ask him.

so last Saturday I did and he said that we should just be friends so there's no pressure.

my gosh I cried for a while. it sucked. but, I got over it.

I told J about it and he said that he most likely still likes me, he's just not ready to date. but, he hasn't made any effort to start a conversation with me or anything. all he does is respond to my streaks.

I don't know, right now I'm... missing him?? I just want to talk to him, but the last time I said something to him it just ended with me being a sad wreak.

I don't know, I need closure. I need to know if he still likes me or not. if he does, then I'm staying and waiting for him. but if he doesn't, then I'm gonna move on.

gosh, it just sucks.