When We Collide √

Chapter 65

"Amell please open this door ," I say for what felt like the umpteenth  time. I could feel that he too was leaning against the door. I removed my combat boots furiously and tugged on my long curls . I had been seated on the dark blue carpet in Amell's room for what seemed like ages. Honestly this was getting on my nerves

"Is this some sick joke ?" I ask and bang the back of my head on the door. "Not really ," he answers for the first time since I'd arrived there."Then what is it why am I here ?"I ask him and I hear him sigh

"I wanted to apologize," he says and I stand up wincing at the pain caused to my butt due to the change of posture ,"well apology accepted can I go now ?"I ask sarcastically knowing very well that there was no way I would be able to get home ,I wasn't going to take any chances with Cal again. I hear the jingling of keys on the other side and I watch as the door budges open. I look at Amell and I suddenly feel a pang of pain. He looks lost ,frustrated like he's been in that room for a really long time with no one to talk to about his problems and no one to pat his back, my eyes travel to his knuckles and they are pretty busted and my insides cringe as I recall the dent on the wall. My eyes finally find his hooded blue ones and they are dark.....his eyes are a fascinating mystery to me it's quite amazing how bright and lively they look when he's happy and how dark and mysterious they become when his frustrated and how cold and bold they are when he's angry. We stay like that for quite some time and all the while he's staring at my eyes . He runs his long fingers through his brown locks.

"I....," we both begin at the same time and he walks out of the door closing the space between us but he keeps his distance either way

"You go first ," he says and looks at me ,"I....wanted to ask why you wanted me here but you've already told me you wanted to..apologize,"I say slightly raising my voice on the apologize part. His eyes travel down to my hand and my head turns on its own accord to look at my hand which is currently holding the phone he gave me . I see him smirk a little and I also smile

"Thanks ," he finally says and I look up at him. His intent gaze on me sends heat all through my body and the last thing I want is for him to get any closer than he already is. I finally grab my combat boots and begin walking towards the door when a cold hand gently grips onto my tiny wrist I immediately stop in my tracks ,"please stay much longer ,"he says or rather pleads and I find myself turning to his direction. By now we are dangerously close and his face is inches from mine. His eyes look at my dull hazel ones before his large thump comes up and rubs my left cheek and the small contact sends shivers within me he suddenly shocks me by closing the small gap between us and engulfing me in his large arms. My head immediately makes contact with his hard chest and I settle onto it relishing in the sound of his heartbeat. My hands are still numbly glued to my side but when he squeezes my petite frame I finally snake them around his broad figure.

"I'm glad you came," he finally breaks the peaceful tranquility. I sigh first and sink deeper into his chest. I don't know how to react to what he said so I just end up tightening my grip on him which he doesn't seem to mind

"I'm sorry Tracy I truly am I never meant to hurt you most especially physically ," he blurts out and we finally pull apart but he's still holding my hands. I look at him and for once he looks sincere and he means what he's saying

"It's okay Amell ," I say in a soft tone. "I'm actually sorry for everything when I called you black, when I made out with Gail at your locker ,when I made you uncomfortable at the cafeteria.......for everything Naye everything I've made mistakes but the worst I made was hurting you ," he finally says and runs his hand through his chocolate locks.

I don't know why but my anger suddenly rises when he mentions all those incidents he's made me go through and I clench my teeth

"Is it always this easy with you Amell ? You hurt someone and say sorry together with jumbled up words acting as escort for your sweet apology and then that's it , they forgive you and life goes on have you ever stopped to think why you hurt that someone?" I ask and I feel the tears hot on my eyes I'm such an emotional wreck. Amell glances at me and he pulls his large hands away from mine

He walks to the wall covering the distance with two long strides and before I know it his fist connects with the wall and his knuckles which were in the process of healing become bursted in one split second. I wince on his behalf and he continues punching the wall furiously , I literally run and stand next to him

"Amell stop you are hurting yourself ," I begin shouting while pulling his arm back. He stops and his blood shot eyes look at me," don't fucking pretend that you care Tracy no one does ,"he says and looks at his bursted knuckles that are now oozing blood ,"and no one will ,"he finishes before walking out to the bathroom. I hear the opening of cupboards before he comes back rubbing his fingers with a flannel. His death look is gone and he looks settled well not certainly settled but considering the situation he does look the part a bit .

"I actually do care Amell ," I blurt out before my mind can register what I am actually saying

"Why ....why do you care Tracy I've hurt you more than once heck I've made you cough out blood and you care you called me a beast a fucking beast and you still care ," he asks me with an emotion in his eyes that I can't quite register.

"I care because I believe I've only read the bad pages," I say and look away from him. "I only called you a beast because it felt right at that moment but I really don't think you are that bad ," I say while shrugging so casually as though we were talking about the weather. He throws the flannel on the floor and walks out the door. I sigh loudly and follow him.

We walk down the long flight of stairs and he walks to the living room opening some curtains and revealing a glass door. He pushes the door open and slides one of them. I follow him out and he ends up stopping at the edge of the swimming pool. He sits and the edge with his feet dangling on the front slightly touching the water. "Come," he says and pats the spot beside him . I look at him questioningly and he rolls his eyes

"So you don't like water meaning you don't bathe ," he says and I frown he chuckles slightly at my reaction and I finally walk across the green grass and sit next to him. I remove my socks and dip my feet into the water. I sigh once I feel the familiar coolness engulf my toes. I close my eyes and Amell watches me the whole time.
"D'you like it ?" He asks and I nod. There is a sudden silence between us but it's not the usual tense aura I was use to having whenever Amell was around.

"Tracy ," he says slightly hesitant and I open my eyes. He's scooted much closer to my side and our thighs are now touching. "I've been acting like a jerk for a reason ," he finally says and I look up at him

My heart has suddenly began pounding and I want to ask him the reason as to why he's been acting that way but I can't bring myself to it.

I take in a deep breath and before I know it the word slips out of my mouth

"Why?"