When We Collide √

Chapter 29

I just stare .....I want to slap myself just to be sure that I'm not dreaming or anything ...I blink a few times and sure enough they are still there

Amell is leaning on the counter and Kait was simply roaming around the kitchen before she stopped when she saw me .Kaitleen frowns slightly upon seeing my reaction .....I divert my eyes between her and Amell ....why were they here....no offence I don't mind Kait but Amell...why on earth was he here

I still stare at Kait and then Amell .....I want to say a lot of things but I don't know how or where to start ...honestly ...my head is spinning it's like someone is vigorously shaking my head

None of them speaks and I can sense the thick aura building up

"What the hell.....," I finally decide to break the silence "What do you want here?"

I can't help but ask because to be honest I want none of them here....I simply want to just take a hot shower and curl up in bed

"We came to see how you....,"Kaitleen starts before I rudely interrupt " I'm okay....always fine .... thank you," I snap

I watch as Amell's eyes graze my body and his eyes flicker "You were wearing a grey shirt when you left," he suddenly says

I feel the sweat build up in my palms....why does the world have to be so harsh ...the nervousness suddenly turns into anger and then like a thermometer on a hot day.... It shoots up and becomes rage....who the hell does he think he is asking me about what I am and was wearing

Before I can decipher anything...I began blubbering words

"Since when did what I wear become your business.....you can't just come into my house and start asking about the shirts I'm wearing ....what's next...what colour my panties are....," I snap and laugh sarcastically I even shock myself with what I'm saying..... I'm never this confident....what has gotten into me

It takes time for what I'd said to sink in before I shout at both of them to get the hell out

Kait's jaw drops and Amell winces at my words....I see a flash of disappointment in his eyes and I know he is regretting why he came here ....I want to mentally slap myself but I also want him to regret ....I don't want him near me

Amell's jaw clenches and he shoots daggers at me if looks could kill ...I'd be six feet under. Kait is simply petrified so much that she doesn't talk .....I want someone to break the tense aura but no one seems willing and I don't want it to be me

Finally Amell talks

"What the hell is wrong with you....we come here simply because we are concerned about what happened to you ...after that.....you know ...whatever happened at the froyo place....and you fucking shun us off like we're some fucking cockroaches in your food .....we've been waiting here for like the past two hours ..." He smacks and I feel my heart swell the moment he said he came because he was concerned

But then I come back to my senses "What is wrong with you....you're yelling at me in my own home ....honestly you're sick to the core.....you're practically the reason why I left in the first place ...then you come here looking all sorry trying to put on a show.... spare me that fucking shit Gabriels .....oh and I don't fucking need your pity....not today not ever ....I don't need you coming to comfort me......I was quite comfortable before I knew you exist......I don't need you coming here to show me how sorry you are for me .....you know you put on quite a show Gabriels," I finish and laugh sarcastically while clapping my hands then I continue , "But guess I'm not an object for charity or forced sympathy," I literally yell at him and by now I'm on the verge of tears and Kait is quite shocked

"I know I'm a mess ....so let me fix my mess .....myself !!!!Get out," I shout at both of them the tears are now hot on my eyes and I feel them coming and the last thing I want is Amell seeing me cry

I watch as Amell fists his large hands .....and he hits the graphite counter so hard I literally hear his knuckles crack .......I wince on his behalf and I feel my stomach churn

I've never seen him this angry....but
I've only known him for like a week ....actually three days I think

"Both of you ," I shout when I notice that Kait isn't moving .....a frown forms on her face and she walks away meekly following behind Amell

I hear the front door bang and I'm sure that it's Amell

I go lock it and lean against it trying to catch my breath ....before I know it I'm sliding down and my knees are on my face ....the first drop falls on my cheek and next thing I know I'm helplessly sobbing at my front door

My life .....fuck it ....fuck it I hate it ....I hate how helpless I look before people....how miserable I look ....my appearance literally screams 'miserable' or 'vulnerable '.......or both.....I start wheezing at the thought of how vulnerable I am.....and it hurt more because this was the second time I looked vulnerable in front of Amell......and I hated it more than I hated my own fucking life....I despised him more than life itself