When We Collide √

Chapter 35

I walked away. My mind was spinning had I just kissed Amell or maybe I was dreaming ...someone should really pinch me hard. I was still breathing heavily ......and I felt heavy footsteps behind me . I wanted to turn back but I immediately knew who it was. I wanted to run away from him ......away from all those people.

"Hey Naye ....can I talk to you ," he said while still trudging slowly behind me . What was wrong with him what part of stay away from me does he not understand. I was still walking ...faster now ...when I felt him grip my wrist and turned me around so that I could face him "what....what do you want ..." I was exhausted..... all my days since the day I knew him have been full of exhaustion and crying. "I just wanted to make sure that....you're... okay ," I was getting sick of this child's play. I sighed heavily and then began, "Look you don't have to pretend you care I'll just go home ..oh and Amell...," I said in a low tone trying to relax, "Please don't tell anyone about what happened," I don't want anyone asking or judging me about anything to do with Amell. If anyone was to find out I'd be called a slut because right now the whole school probably knows that I allegedly had sex with Logan last night...I don't want anyone knowing I kissed Amell back ...next thing you know I'm a slut and I'm fucking the whole soccer team

"You think I want anyone knowing ...," he said while tugging his hair in an oh so playful way. Well he's back....maybe he feels embarrassed that he kissed me I feel dirty for kissing him back . I never knew my first real kiss would be with...the school's hottest bad boy .By now both of us had already recovered from our high and he was looking at me like I was some piece of shit he'd just kissed

"Let's just forget about this ," I breathed and began walking away. I looked back at him and he was still standing there as if waiting for me to turn back and run into his arms...well that wasn't happening any time soon or ever " Oh...don't mention this to anyone .....especially that girlfriend of yours and please stay away from me ,"he looked like he wanted to murder me when I called Gail his girlfriend. I pushed the door that led to the parking lot. I didn't want to go home but I had no other choice ....I had block right now because by now my English lesson was over .....I'd never once missed any lesson since the day I arrived in this school. Something was seriously wrong with me ...today

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I decided to stop at the library to look at a few books and borrow some

"Hi Tracy," the nice lady at the counter said to me while checking in the books I'd borrowed. She was very fond of me because most of my time was spent at the library and she usually told me that my head would one day explode due to reading too many classic romance novels . "Got lots of homework right .....," she continued "Not really ....just research ,"I answered while smiling. "Have a good afternoon Miss Hamilton ,"I told her while trying to balance the books on my tiny arms

When I reached the exit and I hit something....rather somebody .....the books I was attempting to balance on my arms fell to the ground revealing the person I'd hit.....

Logan

He looked at me and his features suddenly softened ...no....no not the pity ....I don't need it right now neither did I want to meet him or anyone I'd seen at the cafeteria. I just looked at him and tried to make my face void of any emotion

" Are you okay ...,"he asked softly. I was getting sick of this fake concern people kept on portraying.... this wasn't the first time I'd had an attack and I was capable of handling myself I'd gone through worse than this

"Yeah ," I said while bending down to pick my books and he bent at the same time trying to help me out

I don't know if I was mad at Logan,I'm the one who should be apologizing to him....I'm the one who wanted to go to his house to change my dirty T-shirt but then again he should have made it clear to the whole cafeteria that we didn't have any sex last night .....but then again that would lead to people questioning what I was doing at his house last night ....this whole thing was so complicated and there were so many buts

"I'm sorry ," he said while rubbing the back of his neck. He actually looked cute apologizing. I didn't want to scold him he looked like the only genuine person among the few assholes who'd been at the cafeteria

"It's okay I should be the one telling you sorry for forcing you to take me to your place ," I said while looking away from his green eyes . We were still kneeling down but I'd stopped picking up the books when Logan began talking "No it's not your fault...you were hurt and you needed help ," he whispered. He was so close to my face and quite a number of people were looking at us as if we were some cliché romance movie where the guy hits the girl and then her books fall and while they both attempt to pick them up ...they end up falling in love

"Thanks ," I also whispered and we both stood up I didn't want the blame game to keep on going "Let me make it up to you ....come with me to the party on Saturday ,"he said so enthusiastically

What makes him think that I'm party material....he was so off . I'd never gone to a party not once my entire life ....I know I'm a disgrace to America teenagers blame my anti socialism.... plus I couldn't stand being in crowded places...cause of my claustrophobia and I'd already had enough attacks for a week ....even though I hated church ....the number of times I've been to church is even higher than the number of times I've been in parties ....that's how messed up I am

I think Logan sensed my discomfort so he rephrased his request

" I don't think I want to go to a party Logan I'm not the living on the edge kinda person ,"I said and gave him a small smile. He frowned a little and then told me to think about it before walking away