When We Collide √

Chapter 37

It was almost lunch time and I knew that I had to give Logan an answer somehow I couldn't just ignore him like that ....he was sort of my friend... well not exactly ...he was just kind enough to try and talk to me. The idea of going to a party didn't sound to appealing to me I'd rather stay home in sweats and reread pride and prejudice or watch something funny like a romcom or something

I am deep in my thoughts before I hear the bell ring signalling lunch. I grab my calculus note book and shove it inside my bag

"There shall be a test on Monday so be sure to prepare for it young ones ,"Mr Finn says before walking out of the class. Highschool students can really make you feel like you want to rip your head and get a job as a toilet cleaner instead

I walk out of class debating on whether to go for lunch. My tummy rumbles and my dilemma is soon resolved .I walk to the cafeteria and I can't help but look at the big table and sure enough all its members are present . Gail is sitting on Amell's lap...the usual...and Kait is sitting beside Marcus leaning her head on his shoulder as the both talk ...probably they are talking of how they are planning to get hitched and live in a nice farm house with ten kids and a house surrounded by pretty little flowers....aghr dweebs..... I ball my tiny hands into fists as the thought of my own best friend abandoning me sinks in deeper and all I can think about is crushing her .....since when did I become so violent

Calm your tits Tracy ...control....control is the best weapon

I'm immediately brought back from my thoughts when the lady at the counter asks what I want....I suddenly feel a rush of déjà vu but considering the tone the nice lady uses ....I'm thinking this day won't be so bad ...I look up and notice that it isn't the same grumpy lady who embarrassed me last time

I dig into the pockets of my sweats and remove a twenty dollar and I ask for a burger and fries. She hands me my order and smiles at me and I walk swiftly to my booth ....I spot Kaitleen glance at me briefly and a frown forms on her face before it is quickly masked by one of her oh so charming smiles. When did she become so hypocritical ...I mean you don't just change in a day .....she suddenly befriends the very people we didn't like the people we usually gossiped about and low key savaged ...the very people she always said she'd never want to be like ....but she clearly fits perfectly with them ...her blonde hair and her tall slightly curvy frame....a fucking perfect cheerleader and before I know it I am squeezing my burger and its contents were bulging out ....damn I do have anger issues

I'm too hungry to leave the Burger so being the foodie I am I immediately return the ingredients of the burger safely between the seeded buns and I savour into the taste of cheap American highschool food. Before I know it I'm done . I want to go to the library but I notice the cafeteria is still full of people and the big table has all its occupants

I dread walking through the middle of the cafeteria . I might as well trip on my laces and fall...Fuck Tracy you are being paranoid you've suddenly grown soft to the world you suddenly care about what people see and say my subconscious suddenly kicks in and I want to hi-five her for punching some sense into me

I don't really care what anyone would think I don't give one fucking shit because I don't care about anyone here and I'm sure the feeling is mutual ...I would care about Kait sometime ago but right now I'm not so sure. After what feels like forever I take in a deep breath and stand up. I begin walking and I can't help but feel the uneasiness it's as if I'm walking the plank simply waiting to hit the water

I'm nearing my destination and I feel the relief wash over me before I hear someone call my name

"Tracy," the guy shouts

And I finally hit the water

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