When We Collide √

Chapter 16

"Daddy please ....don't hurt me .....please .....you can't .....I'm sorry...... Ouch."

I tried to breathe but I felt the black walls around me suddenly close in....a sudden darkness was steadily pushing me down

"Nooo....," I was crying my eyes out

I was struggling with the sheets grasping onto them

"Rae....Rae.....stop screaming....wake up....,".... I heard someone say

I immediately shot up and sat upright on my bed

I was sweating like a maniac ....it was the nightmares again ....I hated them

I tried to look around me and found Aiden seated on my bed side he was in sweatpants and a baggy hoodie ...." Hey.....you okay?"

I was trying to catch my breath ...desperately trying but failing miserably

"Hey....try to breathe through your nose and not your mouth"

I tried that and my breathing slowed down

"I'll get you some water "

He walked out giving me sometime to myself

Why was I dreaming about my dad ......I've not seen him since the age of eight ....

Aiden came back with a glass of water and told me that he'd heard me screaming from his room

Then my screaming was loud because ....his room was all the way down the hall and mine was down the other side of the hall

"I'm sorry I woke you up .....," I said to him

"It's ten in the morning Rae ,"...." And even if it were midnight I'd do anything for you .....I know how nightmares affect you I've been through that to "

I couldn't help but smile ......he was trying to make things better even though he had the same problem

"Let's go for a morning run and then we can eat some pancakes afterwards ,"

"Food seems to always be the solution to you ...."

I said while laughing and uncovering myself

I told him to get out and I went to open the curtains....light penetrated through the blinders....the windows in my room went all the way from mid wall to the ceiling .....my aunt had had them remade due to my claustrophobia and I was very thankful for that

I wore a sports bra and a baggy shirt and some running shorts

I met him down stairs where he was already adorned in his sports attire

"Let's go ...and don't make me run the longer route,"

Even though I wasn't a sporty kind of girl I liked running with Aiden...specifically him .....sometimes he'd carry me on his back and then we'd tumble on the side walk making people question our behaviour

We also made fun of other guys on the sidewalk and sometimes we'd stop a carb just for the sake of it and blankly tell the driver that we were stretching

We began running and I reminded Aiden of my therapy session today and also told him about Kaitleen's visit

"Do you remember how you once made out with Kait ,"I couldn't help but ask Aiden the moment we started our run

Kait and I were playing truth or dare and mighty Aiden decided to join .....I dared Aiden to kiss Kait and him being the fearless guy he is accepted even though he had a girlfriend and...he was like two years older than both of us ..... He decided to kiss her .....he even went as far as biting her lip

" I don't think Kait has ever recovered from that ....actually I think it's the best she's had,"he praised himself

Yeah to be honest it took Kait a whole month because she ended up having a small crush on Aiden but the crush became non existent the moment she realised there was a Marcus O'Neal in our school ....I know....her hormones are quite active

"And how about you .....who've you been smooching lately ....," I could hear the humour in his tone

"You know I've never kissed anyone ....except that kid in fifth grade with the freckles ...who ended up kicking me in the stomach and calling me black jerk .....and I don't think that counts ," I said while remembering Scottie the kid I'd tried to kiss

"Really ....," Aiden said amidst giggles "He kicked and insulted you cause you kissed him?"

"I just said that pig ...."

"Well I think you should loosen a bit .....try to be normal your seventeen for heaven's sake try to have the time of your life ....." He said in a serious tone and stopped talking when he realised I'd stopped in my tracks

"That's the point Aiden .......I'm not normal I have issues ....the world took my normality away from me the moment I saw......you don't get it do you ...the world is only moulded for those who can fit perfectly into it .....it's kinda like a jigsaw puzzle ...and I'm the piece that doesn't belong ," I shouted at him

By now people were already looking at us I was so frustrated I felt like crying

"I'm sorry ....I didn't mean to ...," Aiden began

By now I could feel the tears coming and I didn't want to cry in front of him or anyone

We weren't too far away from the house so I decided to go back to the house

I could feel Aiden hot on my trail and I tried to gain speed .I stomped to my room and banged the door behind me

I leaned back on the door and slid down bringing my knees close to my face and burying my head in between them

I cried....... I cried so hard it hurt.....by the time I was done I was wheezing and I could feel the heavy bags beneath my eyes. I heard a knock on the door and heard Aiden saying sorry. I opened the door and the moment he came in I hugged him so tightly that it shocked him but he eventually hugged me back

"I'm sorry ," I whispered in between sobs

"It's okay....I'm also sorry," he replied silently