The Rant Book

Stress

Hola amigos and amigas! (Wow Spanish on point)

So today imma talk about one of the worst emotions in the world....

Stress

Now stress like all emotions is a natural emotion. Sometimes when you have a test or two along with a project and some other things on your plate: you're gonna get overwhelmed! And of course you don't have control over everything so you just take it as it comes.

But stress turns into a bad thing when it ends up taking control of you.

And I decried to write some scenarios and stuff about stress because truth is stress varies from person to person and situation to situation.

1. "Why is there so much!?!!1"

Alright so this form of stress is when the wonderful people I call high school teachers feel the need to have back to back items, often without considering that hey, you have three other courses to keep up with anyways so why not? Honestly I hate when it happens because you end up overloading your brain.

Like right now: I have a huge math test tomorrow and the next day I have an oral presentation for French, along with a Biology test on the Monday. So for the next couple days I'm booked (and this isn't even including the possible homework that might get assigned along the way)

Already due to my math, I've stress cried almost EVERY DAY. That's about 5 times so far, and it might turn into 6 or 7 by the end of today. (and today I took the math test: I've never cried so hard over a test...ever)

2. EXTRA-curriculars = EXTRA-stress

Alright I know that one thing you can control is the amount of extra-curriculars, however you might not get the say in the timing of said activities....

For example: when I joined my schools ski and snowboard team (I ski) i was aware that I was gonna miss some school along the way. In the month of February, i didn't have a single full week of school. I had 3 races (1 per week) and I was missing quite a bit of school. However, the final week I also had a choir festival I attended, and I missed another day. So, really, it was no shock when I got a 54 as a starting mark for my gr. 11 IB functions (also we never got any quizzes and it was the first mark anyways)

So to say I was stressed due to the catch up...might've been an understatement.

3. People

Alright I'm gonna start by saying this: you should not let people control your emotions. Because people are shit. And they barely even matter anyways.

But I've got some relationships and some people who cause me stress and I've learnt to get rid of them, because you're only hurting yourself.

I find that people have energy or vibes almost. And of course, everyone has the light and dark within them (btw not my quote it's Sirius in Order of the Phoenix so go Harry Potter)

But when people are just this black hole or dark cloud and it just infects you...it's terrible because you can't win, you really can't. And I also can't stand extremely bipolar people (i'm not speaking in the essence of the mental illness, I'm speaking more the extreme mood-swinging emotions that are caused by small things)

an example of these people is something like they're walking in the hall and someone didn't keep the door open so it shuts right before they can get through. Now usually I just approach it: oh just a bit of bad luck, I can open the door myself.

but then of course there are our crazy mood people who get all pissy and take it personally that someone didn't hold the door for them. Guess what princess (or prince for any males)? It's the real world, and the real world can be a bitch. And sometimes you gotta suck it up, and keep going.

4. More People

alright i need to continue on the people topic because sometimes it's not even friends and those close relationships that stress you out...it's sometimes the people around you in general.

Honestly like, there are sometimes people: who are completely irrelevant in my opinion, however, they end up in my life. One girl for example...let's call her Jennifer. So Jennifer is not my friend, and (if you read my previous rant about my nationality) she was "Betty" (please note I don't use real names of anyone because that would be a bit rude, plus this is confidential in a sense).  

So anyways Jennifer happens to be good friends with two of my best friends, and although I don't want them to choose between the two of us it pisses me off because she's always there, she's always in the way, and she's just a bitch to me anyways, and I can't stand it when my friends will watch me getting beaten down and do nothing about it. And plus she's flirting with my best friend's boyfriend constantly...so of course I told her boyfriend (one of my best guy friends) and gave him a serious reality check.

However, when nothing was changing, again, I went to him, reminding him that being a people pleaser really doesn't get you anywhere: if the person was truly your friend, they care about your opinions and your feelings and sometimes you being happy is what makes you happy.

And I seriously even said to him that if this is what he wanted it to be, I didn't know if I could be friends with him: because I wasn't willing to deal with Jennifer 24/7 and waste my time hating her.

Not only that she also was part of the reason I ended up dropping a guy I was wheeling (we'll name him Ryan). So see Ryan was the hook up kinda guy and I knew this because some of his best friends (who I'm friends with at my school) told me. I figured hey why not, so of course I started going for it. However, whenever I talked about him whether it was something sorta cute that he said and whatnot, I often got bashed that I was "attached" and Jennifer said word for word: "You can't handle a hook up". And the reason she was saying this was because she was a hook up kind of person herself (also she basically eavesdropped and interuppted a conversation I was having with my friend so again: IRRELEVANT OPINION)

I also got this backlash of "can't" and warnings from a lot of friends and people, some of which who I was like "uh did I ask? No? FUCK OFF!", and it wasn't until after I dropped Ryan (partially because I had moved on, partially because it wasn't going anywhere, and also partially because there were a lot of pressures and stress that came with us having whatever we had...) that people were shocked. People asked me why and I'm silently thinking: "bitch you stressed me tf out and now i'm suffering and I lost something that I'm not gonna get back."

*sigh*

well that's the end of today's rant!

hopefully you guys see where you're coming from and maybe some of you probably relate to this...maybe.... :')

HAVE A GOOD DAY!

xx