Remember Me?

Chapter 7: "Thomas Don't."

Hannah's POV.

I was walking back to the lookout with Winston. We were talking and laughing about random things. Newt had left with Alby and I couldn't see Thomas. I wanted to talk to him. I arrived at the lookout and Winston kept walking. As I got to the second floor, I shouted to him.

"If you see Thomas, tell him we need to talk." He waved back at me with reassurance that he understood. I reached the top and looked for Thomas. I saw him near the gardens. He was looking towards me. I waved and gestured for him to come over, he looked around and came to the tower but I could see an annoyed look on his face. "Come up." I chirped when he was at the bottom. I saw him roll his eyes. Why was he being funny with me? The door opened slowly and Thomas stepped up, but he didn't look at me. Instead he just completely blanked me and sat on a crate at the other side of the tower. "Thomas?.." I finally broke the silence. He didn't reply though. "Thomas."

"What." I was blown back by his tone. I didn't expect him to sound so harsh?

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I almost shouted. He ignored me, so I stepped over to him and put my hand firmly on his shoulder. "Answer me." He flinched. I didn't think he expected me to have came over here. He stood up and looked me right in the eyes. Thomas rubbed his hands up and down my arms and edged me back towards the tree that held the whole of the lookout tower up. "Thomas... What are..." Was all I could say before he forced his lips onto mine. I closed my eyes and realised what he'd done. I pushed him off me. "What the fuck was that!" He looked so hurt by my words, but I didn't care.

"Hannah... I thought?"

"Thought what Thomas?" He stared at his feet.

"The other night..." My head rushed back to the time. I kissed Thomas. I did it, not him. But my feelings for Newt were stronger. Although, I did still have feelings for Thomas...

"The other night was a mistake!" I instantly regretted my words. I saw tears form in his eyes as I clasped my hands over my mouth. "Thomas... I..."

"Didn't mean what you said?" There was a long, awkward silence. "Well if you didn't mean it, then do it again." I shook my head in a misunderstanding way. "Kiss me." I didn't want to. I loved Newt, but I couldn't just abandon my feelings for Thomas. Life wasn't that easy unfortunately. I didn't know what to do. "I'll give you to three." I stared at him. "One..." He paused long. "Two..." Another. "Three... As I thought." He turned to leave but I grabbed his wrist. I looked at his face and lightly pecked his lips. I pulled away and he smirked. He pushed his lips against mine again. I tried to force him off but he was being too strong.

"Thomas..." I panted, as he moved down to my neck. He started nibbling. I gasped. "Thomas... Don't." He moved back up to my face.

"I know you have feelings for me Hannah. Don't try to hide them." He wasn't wrong. I defiantly had feelings for him. But I didn't want to. "Come on. Show me them." I kissed his lips once more. Stronger than last time. My stomach filled with regret. He slammed my back against the tree. It winded me. He kissed me so hard and I kissed back harder. What the fuck was I doing! I pulled away.

"No, Thomas I can't." I pushed him back and stood at the balcony, hanging my head over the edge. I began to cry. Thomas saw one of my tears fall at least 15ft to the ground below.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He placed his hand on my cheek and I moved it away.

"I can't do this Thomas! I just can't..."

"Do what babe?"

"Don't call me that!" I shouted. More tears fell down my face. "You know I want to, but I can't..." I paused. "I can't love you Thomas. I'm sorry..." He looked at his feet. "I don't want to hurt you or anyone else... Yeah, I do love you. But not in 'that way'. Maybe just not yet?" I placed my hand on his cheek and he nuzzled it. He sighed deeply.

"Okay..." He moved away from me and sat back on the crate. I didn't want to be up here anymore. I left and ran away. I went to the homestead, and up to my room. Chuck and Joe, another builder, had made me my own room. You know, since I was a girl. I got in and slammed the door. I sat on my bed and cried for what felt like forever. I cried myself to sleep.

I heard a knock on my door which woke me up.

"Go, away!" I shouted with more anger in my voice than ever. The door opened and I swung my head round to snarl whoever walked in.

"Hey... I heard you crying from next door..." It was Newt. I felt terrible. I'd betrayed him with one of his best friends! Newt was one of the last people I wanted to see right now. "I asked Joe if he could set your room up next to mine. I thought you would like that?" I turned my head back around and let my head hang. He sat next to me and I felt his hand touch my shoulder. "What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it!" I snapped back. Newt's expression lowered even more. He rubbed his hand on my thy as I began to cry again. I slammed my head into his chest and bawled my heart out. Newt just hugged me tighter than he ever had.

"Shhh, shhh." He rubbed my back. "It's gonna be fine... Trust me." Over my weeps and cries, I could hear Newts heartbeat. It was loud and comforting. He noticed I was listening to is as my breathing began to sync. "Hear that?" I cuddled into him and listened harder. "It beats for you. Only you. No one else." This made my eyes water again. Newt laid back and lay me beside him. I snuggled up tight as he planted soft kisses onto my hair. "No one will ever hurt you. Okay?" I nodded. My eyes were now closed.

"I love you, Newt." He gripped me tighter.

"I love you too." His tone wasn't as soft as it normally was. He sounded angry. I felt his head move and I knew he was looking at me.

Newt's POV.

I turned my head to look at Hannah. Her chest moved softly as she slept. Her cheeks stained red from tears. I wanted to protect her. No. I had to protect her. She was my world, and I didn't want her upset. I wanted to know what had gone on earlier and what brought on those tears. I waited a little longer until she had slept for at least half an hour. I got up and left her on her bed. I pulled a blanket over her shoulders and kissed her hair once again.

"Nobody hurts my princess." I whispered. I stormed out of the room towards the fire. Tonight's ceremony had begun. I went straight to the makeshift bar that opened every night and got a drink from Fry.

"Everything okay Newt?" He asked.

"Yep." I said blankly and bit my lip. "Bloody fucking fantastic."