A Smiley Face On A Dull Day (snowbarry)

part 24.

Brace your self's. Those who don't like the mature stuff... no one's forcing you to read. Then again it's not that good so you don't have anything to worry about... I'm not sure if worry is the right word but let's just go with it.

2 weeks later

There engment was announced in the paper.

In big bold letters on page 4 along with a picture of them both faking smiles at the camera while his wrinkly hand rested on the curve of her waist.

He didn't like this one bit.

He'd never really been the jealous type but this made him the murderous type.

"I was thinking if making pasta bake for dinner, what do you think?"

Barry didn't reply he was to busy staring holes into the paper.

"Barry? Barry?"

"Sorry" he grumbled and put the paper down his mother, now interested in what he was glaring at picked up the paper and sighed.

"Are you okay?"

"Of course I'm okay the love of my life just announced to the world that she was marrying somebody more then twice her age next spring, so I'm just peachy" Barry said sarcastically

"They'll be other girls Barry you'll find someone else to love" Nora tried

Barry ran his hands down his face "no I won't... she's it for me I'm not going to be able to love someone again knowing what it's like being loved by her"

"Them why don't you go tell her that?" Nora suggested

"I don't deserve her" Barry muttered "can we drop this subject now?"

"No we can't just drop this subject now!" Nora snapped this was new his mother hardly ever got this angry "you have been moping around for almost 3 weeks now and you won't tell me why he only answer I get from you is that it's complicated, I know that you fell in love with that girl Barry and I know that she loves you to so why haven't you gone to win her back?!"

"I can't just get her back now! Don't you understand?! I ruined everything I lost the love of my life and it's my fault!"

"Then go fix it! Your a grown man you should know by now how to clean up your own messes" Nora snapped

Barry thought about it he did love csitlin and he wouldn't forgive him self if he looked back on this memory knowing he might of been able to stop this.

"...okay" he muttered "okay"

He stood up and was about to go upstairs to get his wallet and phone when his mother stoped him.

"Barry"

"Yeah?"

"Don't do anything stupid"

"I'll try"
***

Barry didn't knock because he was sure if she knew it was him at the door she wouldn't answer so he just walked in.

She was sitting on the sofa in her pajamas with her quilt wrapped around her while she hugged a pillow to her chest as 'Dear John' played on the TV.

She glanced towards the door when she herd it open then turned back to the TV when she saw him.

"Come to return your key?"

"No. But you can have it back if you want I've just come to talk"

"I thought we were done talking" she said stubbornly not even looking at him.

"...I've come to apologise" he said softly and sat down on the opposite end of the sofa.

"For what?"

"For not telling you, for falling in love with you, for yelling at you on the day your father died and for being so horrible about this whole Myron thing... I have a lot to apologise for"

She turned to him and smiled sadly "I'm not sorry that you fell in love with me and you shouldn't be sorry either. You should be sorry for letting me fall in love with you when you knew that we were supposed to get married"

"I know"

She sighed and rubbed her temples "I'm  never going to get over what happened these last through months have drained me physically and emotionally... and on top of all of that I'm supposed to marry this man I don't love or know"

"Is there anything I can do?"

"Just" she groaned in frustrated before lunging forward, closing the distance between them kissing him and he was kissing her he didn't have to think about it that was the problem when he was kissing her he was never thinking she had that effect in him.

This wasn't like any kiss they'd shared be for it was hurried and hungry they went doing this out of love.

Caitlin straddled his lap and he pulled her impossibly close to him while his hands rested on her hips. Everything just swirled together every feeling, every thought, every sensation until-

"Cait, we need to stop" he murmured regretfully pushing her away lightly.

"Why?" She panted and rested her forehead against his.

"Because it's not right, your angry with me and your still grieving and I just want you back"

She shook her head "no, no I want this, I want you I'm not drunk and I'm not high I'm not under the influence of anything I'm a fully consenting adult. You have me Barry, you always have so just take me, please"

He let out a breath and tucking a piece of hair that was in her eyes behind her ear before nodding.

He connected his lips with hers and she melted into him the kiss deapened and he tangled his fingers in hair.

She dug her nails into his arms and he placed soft kisses down the slope of her neck and then her collar bone.

She mumbled something he couldn't make out before gasping and tugging on his hair to pull his lips back to hers.

Caitlin pulled his shirt over his head and ran her hands over his chest while Barry unbuttoned her flannel pajama top and tugged it down her arms.

She giggled when he couldn't get it off so she helped him and he threw it into a corner.

"Bedroom?"

"No" she breathed against his lips

He pulled his lips away from hers and began pressing kisses down her collar bone he bit her where her neck and her shoulders met and she moaned and pressed her practically bare chest against his

"I don't want to do this on the sofa"  he panted against her neck.

"Humm then take me to bed"

Barry grinned and stood up using the sofa arm for support as he lifted her up with him and her legs tightened around his waist.

He carried her to the bedroom but she tried to make it impossible for him by digging her nails into his back and sucking on his neck.

He ended up slamming her back against the closest wall and kissing her senseless  until she gave in and let him carry her to bed without distracting him.

They made it to her bedroom and he dropped her on the bed.

So what do you think???