Okay
But like
I hate summer
I'm lonely
I'm tired
My mum found my binder but has yet to say anything to me
She took it when I had hidden it and so now I'll leave her a note in the same spot
I'm freaking out
Also she's still forcing me to take dance classes
Even though I told her I don't enjoy dance
And that I would rather be in a theatre group
Did I mention I'm lonely?
Also it's the devil's time of month so I'm hating myself more than usual
Doubting my identity more than usual
Life sucks
I wish I were dead
I wish I had never been born
In other news, I lied to my doctor the other day
They were having me fill out paperwork (ew)
And one question was 'do you lack interest in things you used to enjoy'
Or something like that.
Yeah, I do, I thought.
I circled no.
'Do you feel hopeless, useless, depressed, etc?'
Yeah, I thought. I circled no.
There were a few more questions
I lied on all of the ones where I knew the answer would get me into trouble
I hope that's not, like, a federal offense or something
I guess we'll find out
I just didn't want anyone to know how bad I'm feeling
Especially not my mum
I lied because of her
She's the reason I do a lot of things I'd rather not do
Update: mum didn't take my binder she just moved it
YOU ARE READING
Get Out Of My Swamp!!! (Random Book)
RandomThe book of bad life choices. I swear this actually will become serious. Sorry if you were looking for dank memes. I'm going through a less than fantastic time, and I rant a lot. Trigger warnings, mentions of suicidal thoughts, etc.
