Get Out Of My Swamp!!! (Random Book)

so i was vv petty

so i did this petty thing today and i kind of regret it but kind of don't???
so i had these two friends in the previous school year. i was very close to one of them. so, this year they made these new friends and that's fine, new friends are cool, but it was like they didn't even care about me anymore. so i'm like, yeah, whatever. i didn't have anyone else so i just stayed with them at lunch and such. then it's like all of a sudden, everything changes. one of them, literally all they talk about is being gay and other people being gay and those m preg fan fictions. it gets annoying but i didn't really say anything. the other always says they're poor but they went to harry potter world and got all this stuff. they kept telling my squish (ace crush) that they would get something for them there since they hadn't gotten them a birthday present, then got them a bookmark. they ended up getting one of their new friends a cosplay wig, even though this friend doesn't even cosplay. and then when i sat at their lunch table that whole group did nothing but talk about cosplay, sometimes sexual references and such, but nothing i cared anything for. it was like i wasn't even there, though. like i didn't matter to them. just like every other minute of my existence, in other words. so i decided to start sitting with my squish and her friends. i'm much happier with them, since i'm actually included there.
i know i probably offended the two of them when i gave them a note explaining these things to them, and i was v petty; however, i feel that i expressed the truth and my true feelings, so i'll stand by that note. i just feel bad for being so mean. it's just...it's kind of sad when you're not as good a friend to someone as the person who doesn't even know that they're closeted trans.