TAINTED | Zayn Malik

Chapter 20|Taint Me

warning: semi mature content

If there was ever a time that I could ACTUALLY say that I was happy with my life, I would just end up lying to you.

There was never a time that I could say I was happy dying and knowing that I lived a great one, but it wasn't true. I wouldn't be true to myself and I know that in my last moments having my life flash before my eyes, it would be such a depressing memory. And I would go out fucking depressed, and I was. At this pure moment, I was fucking depressed realizing that everything was horrible.

Holy shit, my life sucked.

All I could think about was the many times of being judged, humiliated, thrown into the world of darkness. You can pretty much name all of the bad shit, and I'm sure it has happened to me. Majority of it anyway, beyond the point of being chased. I didn't think it would be underneath my name, but surprise surprise. This was happening to me.

"Snap the fuck out of it." Zayn groaned, making me look at him. "It's not the time, you can't do this. Not now." He barked at me.

"Oh my god, this is it? I'm gonna die." I gasped loudly, feeling everything that I was so afraid of feeling. My chest becoming tight as my heart was thumping so fast that I wasn't sure if I was going into shock or not. "Oh my god, my mother."

"Ryder, calm down." His aggression didn't seem to be aimed at me, although I knew how much we pissed each other off. He was trying hard to reassure me, and somehow that meant a lot more than whenever Ben told me I was overreacting.

On each side of the car were men on a motorcycle, signaling to Zayn. They wanted us to stop the car, and Zayn didn't hesitate to raise his middle finger proud in the air.

I scoffed turning away from him, wrapping up the hot food on my lap in a shaking mess. I tossed it the back before I heard a loud bang and a crack as the car jerked. I turned around sharply , gasping loudly as I seen one of the men plastered on the windshield.

Zayn hit him, he fucking hit him.

I screamed as he stopped the car and the man's body flew off,  the sound of his body hitting the car as Zayn continued driving again. I could hear the sounds of cars behind us, swerving to dodge the flying body.

"Are you crazy? What is wrong with you?!" I shouted, looking at him shocked. I wasn't surprised that he would do something like this, I just didn't want it happening while being in his presence.

"The asshole deserved it!" He shouted, reaching forward and using his fist to punch at the glass.

The spider web increased with every punch until I lifted my leg, kicking at it while he hit it and it flew off. Hitting the side of the road with a loud crash as it shattered. The wind picked up drastically, instantly bringing a chill onto my body. I could feel the bumps forming on my skin, as the harsh wind pierced it.