Schizo: A Memoir

New and Improved Goals and Hopes for 2016!!!!

Well we'll jump right in...

~ Take better care of myself all the way around (personal and family life included)

~Indulge in my crafts

~Use my gifts (to praise and glorify the Lord)

~Honor God with my living

~Love the Lord with my life

~Answer his calling

~Be more involved and supportive (with everything)

~Less talk, more action (write more, if that were possible)

~Update journals on a regular basis and form a routine

~Include more water and possibly less coffee in my diet (I know, I'm such a traitor)

~Cure my addiction to online shopping sites – my wallet is hurting

~Gain another source of income for multiple income streams ( I heard somewhere that millionaires have multiple income streams, so I figure if I behave like a millionaire I may actually become one)

~Give in to intuition and positive thinking at all times – even when my mood is low

~Not to live in my anger or my depression, climb out of that crap and shake it off (got shit to do)

~Find the time in my life to accomplish these tasks as this list is ridiculously long...but these are things I need to work on.

~Curb smoking habit...maybe drink more LOL (kidding :P )

~Socialize more (after holiday blues has me in my shell)

~Live in good music ( meaning – find some good music and make it a part of my life's soundtrack)

~Use my hands, mind and skill to create more things!!

~Last but not least, make good on promises and commitments (I don't lie to people but life happens and I find myself leaving people hanging and I hate that – so this is something that HAS to change.)

These are doable goals, I have even started a few of them today...well I started January 4th when I penned these to paper - it has just taken me a few days to put them here. Life is always doing what it does with its constant flow of activity and directional changes...I picture it to look like the East Australian Current as depicted in Finding Nemo. People jump in to ride it along with you and exit where they may but it just continues to flow without end, with or without you.

Swimming against the tides will get you nowhere; therefore going with the flow (assuming that is the direction you want to go) is best. But you have to trust life and trust yourself to know that you are doing the right thing. Sure it seems scary at first especially if it's a new direction you're headed in and the terrain is unfamiliar but then that's where that adventurous spirit comes in. Just get to know your surroundings, find a spot where you fit in and take it from there. If there is no spot, then create one.

New things, new environment, same you! (We won't say new you...unless you've been reborn or your name is Caitlyn Jenner, then yeah...otherwise, you are the same you, you were yesterday with new experiences under your belt. Nothing wrong with being the same you – you change regardless but remain intact. People say that if you are the same person you were last year then something is wrong. We aren't even the same person we were yesterday due to life's changes but very much still ourselves.

We can't get away from who we are. "Everywhere you go, there you are."

Drake said it best – "You don't run from where you come from." If home isn't a physical place and is a state of being then you never left and should be quite happy where you are. Take the memories, the feelings and the experiences with you wherever you go. Good and bad. The bad things remind us of what we don't want, what mistakes were made and what is needed to get better. Without the bad things, we'd never know what the good things feel like.