My masculinity was taken away... however the fuck that works |286|

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by TheKingOfLosers

by TheKingOfLosers

My aunt has a swimming pool in her backyard, and my mom took us over to her house. I went back into the car.

They thought it was just because I'm afraid of bugs |which I'm not... I picked up a spider before... I've picked up a spider egg... I've also let a spider crawl up my leg, and lay next to me in my bed... I have some crazy spider stories, maybe I'll tell some later...|

Because I went inside, my mascuilinity, and right to be a man was stripped away, apparently... however the fuck that happens.

The real reasons I went inside were:

A) mosquitoes. I was out there for roughly 3 minutes, and I have 10 bites, and counting. |aghhh they're really irritating|

If you don't know, bugs really love me. For some reason I am super delicious compared to everyone.

B) I just didn't want to be around anyone.

And then C.

Trigger warning I'm gonna mention self harm here...

Water reopens a few of my cuts |which will probably end up being scars, honestly| still, and the water was infested with dirt and bugs, and I'd rather not get that inside of my system, though I already might have because they're screaming in pain, and they didn't do that any other time I've gotten wet.

Yeah, I don't know why sitting in a car because I don't want to overload my emotional and physical capacity is unmanly, but whatever. I don't need your validation in my mascuilinity right now, since I've been passing really well |Since I've been wearing shorts, and I got calves and lots of body hair lol|