Becca Doesnt Know Emotions Apparently

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I'm not quite 100% sure what to call this... I'd classify it under whatever the same catagory as rants are because I'm priovaky going to type like 500 extra, unnecessary words about this

So I'm currently in London, sitting at the cafe in the Science Museum as I'm writing this.

The museum is pretty cool, but one of the exhibits made me feel this really... I can't explain it feeling.
The exhibit was a V-2 rocket that the Nazis used during WWII

 The exhibit was a V-2 rocket that the Nazis used during WWII

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I never realized how big this thing wasFor some reason all the pictures I've seen of it have made me think it was probably a few feet taller than a human

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I never realized how big this thing was
For some reason all the pictures I've seen of it have made me think it was probably a few feet taller than a human.
I was walking around looking at everything in the section until I recognized the pattern and realized, "that's a V-2 rocket." <- my exact thought process

I don't know... seeing this weapon that apparently flew at supersonic speed and impacted without warning, killing and destroying thousands of people for the conquest of a... madman... it just... stirred something inside me I guess. I don't know what to call it.

Despise? Anger? Horror? Pity? Hate? At what? History? A dead person? I don't get it

It made me clench my teeth and glare at the thing before continuing walking. I'm not normally a hateful person, heck I can't even hold a grudge, but maybe this time is an exception? But again, at what? Everything my mind comes up with doesn't seem like a reasonable excuse.

Because seriously, I'm not a conflicting person. I don't like conflict, I try to solve it or stay away from it. I feel bad when I upset people for some reason and I say sorry WAAAAAY too much IRL.
So why would this rocket that gave birth to space exploration, one of my favorite sciences, make me feel so upset??

When I asked my dad if he had seen it, he seemed excited and gave me an interesting fun fact about it (as in, excited to tell me more about it) but my mom and dad both then gave me a strange look and asked why, I quote, looked "pissed off."
I told them I'd maybe tell them later once I maybe figured it out myself, which got ever weirded looks from them.

I feel like this is something stupid to be upset and worked up over, and now I'm just questioning why I feel this way.

IDK this is just me rambling about a new emotion I don't understand.
(How people feel about love XD watch this be me in 20 years and I'm wondering if I'm going through the same thing about some boy XDDD)

Buuut anyway I'm going to be leaving this cafe soon
Auf weidersehen!
-Becca out

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