Something's happened with my extended family again
Why can't I have a decent extended family?
IDK what but my dad's on the phone with one of his brothers I think talking about prosecutors and lawsuits and IDKKKKKK
I hate reality so much because it's such a horrible, evil place. Funny thing is, that's REALITY. Anything less is a fantasy. We have so many fantasies inside the real reality to mask the fact that humanity is a horrible race?
I'm going to admit, I'm pretty sure I'm a pretty big cynical pessimist when it comes to this stuff
It doesn't help that I've had to actually think about this stuff a lot more in LA
People are depressed and I want to help but I can't because I'm not there physically, people in the place I'm supposed to call "home" decide to do shootings against each other every few WEEKS?!
People manipulate each other for their success and the other's failure, they're selfish and cruel and horrible.
I HATE THIS! I CANT DO ANYTHING!
I'm just some stupid girl who lives in a fishbowl and probably knows nothing about "reality" but I know enough to know that IM USELESS!
Why are kids so underrated! It's always about adults, their jobs, their personal goals, their money. Adults are the ones that complain about cheesy movies that were MADE FOR KIDS. But KIDS can't say anything, because we have no value, no knowledge apparently, until we're 18 going into the "real world" on our own and SUDDENLY WE ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW EVERYTHING!
I DONT GET THIS!! I DONT UNDERSTAND THIS REALITY
This is probably the biggest reason I'm writing "To Find Home." Because... I feel like I still need some better escape than video games and videos and stories and fantasies for a couple hours. I know it's not possible, but... the misplacement of a soul in a world much crueler than them is hard.
(That's a "To Find Home" thing, chill. Maybe not directly, but it's sort of one of the base ideas for the plot.)
I just... need to go do something... to get my mind off all these depressing things... I hate this...
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Becca's Book of Randomness: The Sequel
RandomOH HECK YEAH #2 FITE ME ABOUT IT (lol this description is much more intense than my last one) BTW, my stuff probably still isn't that interesting. (also, cover and OCs belong to me!)
