Things weren't okay, you and Dean couldn't find Sam. He was gone, he just disappeared. You flipped shit on Dean for letting Sam go into a diner to get him pie. Dean yelled at you and then quickly apologized. Finally you both stop at the Roadhouse and go to talk to Ash.
"(Y/N), sweetie. We will find Sam." Ellen says soft.
"I'm worried Ellen.. His.. Well you know. I just I don't know." You frown.
"Breathe it's okay." She says softly touching your arm. Ellen took a great liking to you, not just because you were a former hunters daughter but because she considers you like her other daughter. Dean finally comes back from talking to Ash. He didn't have a very happy look on his face. Ash smiles at you softly and Dean motions for you to follow him.
"Ash will call when he finds anything. Let's go meet up with Bobby." Dean says. You go to object but Dean pushes you out the door. You roll your eyes and get in the impala. Dean starts her and pulls out of the parking lot. You sigh and wrap your arms around yourself. You were miserable. Sammy had to be okay.. Right? He was your everything.
*flashback*
You and Sam had met at Stanford when he first got there. You thought he would pick your best friend at the time... Jess over you. Jess and Sam did go on a few dates and then Sam found out you knew about hunting and he could be himself around you. Jess became jealous of you and Sam hanging out all the time and eventually told you to leave Sam the hell alone.
This pissed you off.. Jess was suppose to be your best friend. She ended up starting a fight and she punched you in the face. You didn't bother to stop her. You just held back your tears and left. You didn't want to hurt Jessica. You knew how to defend yourself but you didn't want to hit her back. You only hunted for the Supernatural. You avoided Sam's phone calls and eventually started skipping classes. Sam became worried, he found you in a new hiding place in the library. At that time your bruise wasn't very dark anymore.
"(Y/N) why are you avoiding me?" You flinch a little and don't look up.
"Sam, leave me alone." You responded.
"Look at me." He said softly sitting next to you. You look up and Sam's mouth drops open. He then touches your cheek softly. Your eyes close at his touch. "Who did this to you?"
"N-no one." You whispered.
"(Y/N)." Sam said stern.
"It doesn't matter. You need to leave me alone Sam."
"What?" Sam asked his face dropping.
you shake away the past. You couldn't focus on that right now. You needed to believe that you would find your boyfriend. You had been in love with Sam for a very long time and you needed him to be okay. The three of you had a good thing going. Saving people and hunting things. You all have saved a lot of people.
You realize the cars stopped and Bobby is waiting for you both. He pulls you into a hug and then hugs Dean. You lean against baby gently not to hurt her (or Dean would have a fit). Bobby pulls up maps and everything. It's at that second Dean gets hit with something. He falls into baby.
"Dean?!" You exclaim. He groans and says he's fine. It happens again and this time he collapses except for Bobby keeping him up.
"The hell was that." Bobby demands.
"I saw a bell.. In a run down town. And I saw Sam." Dean says quietly.
"You saw Sammy?!" You squeak covering your mouth. "Is he okay?!"
"What kind of bell?" Bobby questions and Dean explains it. Bobby knows then and there where Sam is. You immediately jump in the impala. Dean follows Bobby and you all head for Sam. You get impatient on the drive and Dean can tell.
"(Y/N), calm down." Dean says softly.
"I can't calm down Dean. Sammy is alive." You whisper soft. Dean just nods and Bobby pulls off. You jump out and Dean pops the trunk. He hands you a gun and a flashlight. Bobby had his ready and you all start walking. You keep your eyes open for Sam but don't see him. You hear yelling and that's when Sam starts walking this way. He spots you and lights up completely and that's when someone runs up behind him.
"SAM!" Dean yells...but it was too late. Sam falls to his knees and Dean runs for him. Bobby takes off after the guy. You finally find your feet again and run to Sam. Dean is talking to him and you pick up on some of it. It brings tears to your eyes. You watch the light fade from Sam's eyes and you lose it. You hear Dean yell Sam's name loud and you collapse. You curl up and scream. Dean jumps and finds you on the ground. The tears falling hard. Bobby kneels near you and helps you up. He practically has to hold you up. You couldn't find your legs.
-days later-
Dean hadn't left Sam's side. He lay on a bed.. He almost looks like he's peacefully sleeping. You can't take it anymore.. Dean snapped on Bobby awhile ago but you stayed. Tears still falling.. How were you still able to cry? When Dean sits there you finally stand up and know what you have to do.. There was only one way you could be with Sam forever now. You abruptly walk across the room and grab your gun. You pull out the clip and empty it to one bullet. You had never thought of suicide but you couldn't bare it any longer....
You needed Sam...
He was your other half...
"Forgive me Sammy." You whisper and take the safety off.
You put the gun to your head and tears roll down your face. You don't hear the footsteps and it's at that second you hear Dean.
"(y/n)!!" Dean yells, his voice scared you and he grabs for the gun. The gun goes off. You fall to the ground and Dean is horrified. He checks you and finds the bullet just grazed you. You'd be completely fine. Dean groans and gets some gauze to clean up your wound. He picks you up and puts you on the small couch. He decided then what he must do. Dean runs out to the car and speeds off.
You however were flying.
*flashback*
"Leave me alone Sam."
"(y/n) was it Jess?" He demands soft. Your face changes and he knows. Sam frowns and touches your cheek again. Your eyes close and you feel your cheeks turn red. You had a crush on him , you had way before Jess ever claimed dibs on him. Sam shocks you when he leaned forward to kiss you on the lips ever so softly. His other hand lightly on your hip."I don't want Jess." He says soft.
"I see the way you two act."
"She isn't you, (y/n) I think you are amazing. You are cute and you are a hunter. I can be myself around you. I miss your laugh and the cute little motions you do." You turn red at the fact Sam pays attention to so much about you.
"Sammy." You whisper.
Sam jumps awake to find himself on a crappy bed. He looks around and finds you sound asleep on a tiny couch. Getting up slowly he walks over to you. He smiles and stops when he sees the gauze around your head. He hears you mumble his name and move a little. Leaning down he kisses your forehead softly.
