This is What I Do With My Life (Book 2)

Moar Scarlett

So, here's the finished product.

I think it turned out pretty good.

I think Lett looks cute in glasses.

Like really cute.

So, I'm digitalizing the watercolor painting I tried, because it failed... miserably

That should be done soon.

See ya!

-K

Scroll down farther for a rant about my self confidence/worth/whatever I said a few chapters ago.

See, I wasn't lying.

But I honestly feel like I was being a bitch in that Thalia chapter. Bitching about my comments. I feel bad.

But I wasn't lying about my worth issues.

I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, like my style isn't going anywhere.

I look at some of my closest friend's art (mostly SpiritWolf23 and PurpleTurtles156 's stuff) and I'm just like, 'they draw so good, they get so much attention for art irl. There's are so much better, why do I get all the attention here, when my stuff isn't that great.'

I think it honestly started back in 1-4 grade.

All of my friends got stuff in the art show, or display case, and I got nothing.

I never got a single thing in there.

Every project I got handed back, not put on display.

It honestly hurt.

I worked so hard on it, and I thought it looked so good, but apparently not good enough.

It really took a toll on my confidence in abilities now.

I think the teacher's name was like, Mrs. Gaskill or something. I really don't like her now.

I feel I'm slowly falling back into that pit of 'I'm not good. I'm not worth all of these followers, these votes, comments. My art really sucks.' And it wasn't that way before! My first art book. I got so confident! You guys really helped me.

Now...

I feel I'm stuck.

I'm not going anywhere.

I feel my worth is plummeting...

My confidence is growing again.

Last year, there was this girl.

I really hate her.

She made a comment about me wearing MLP shirts to school, and I got really quiet and shy in class.

I'd never want to read, never want to answer questions.

But now I'm like 'no Kayla. Stop that. Go on, read. Who cares if you read something wrong, we all make mistakes! If you answer wrong, who cares!'

And I kinda have you guys to thank for that.

Really.

I love all of you.

See me not as an artist,

But as someone who is like a sister.

I don't want to be important.

Heh.

Part 100 and here I am nagging you guys about my problems.

I really don't want you guys to feel bad for not commenting, really.

I was being a bitch.

Trust me I know.

Just know if I go on about stuff like this,

Just know I'm okay.

Really.

I'm trying to be more confident with my stuff.

So, bye actually.

- Kayla