Book of Burning Random Insanity

im so so so sorry

im really sorry... i havent updated in like forever, i almost never show up and i almpst never reply to messages. i cant make excuses now but the truth is, school made me lose my sanity and a lot of shit happened.

i fell for my best friend Renz and things went awkward after i confssed. his girlfriend charged at me andnow almost everyday my life is on the line becahse of mamy other people. even if i got Renz back as a friend, things went more batshit.

im sorry if i havent informed you until now but...

weeks ago i finally got a boyfriend. his name is Ryan and he also has Wattpad, Skype amd fb. his new account here was _Masamune_, named after our favorite character.

you know?when i said yes that day, i didmt care about him. i just cant say no. hes been my friend for two months and i just dont want to hurt him.

but i slowly started liking him bacl after seeing how he treated me.

but you know what hurts? in the end he confessed he just used me as a substitue for his crush and make her jealous. theyre togetger now.

i feel like hanging even more. im so sorry.

im trying my best to write, but i had writers block and ive been editing my storues in microsoft, im trying to do covers and vlogging in private to ease my pain and ive been insane. voicws and demons everywgere..

im really sorry. readibg all your comments about how uouve bedn waiting for my updates maks me try to write more. so please. i ask you to qait.

im sorry and thsnk you for understanding