Book of Burning Random Insanity

Goals I Want To Reach

1. Complete my 15 books and counting.

2. Reach at least 2k followers. That actually follows me for my talent and not follow-for-follow. . . Just thinking of it makes me mad at the amount of follow-for-follow requests I get on a daily basis.

3. Reach high to the point I can't be compared to my sister or other authors anymore.

4. Show my parents my books.

5. Make them the least bit proud.

6. Have a book appear on the first page when you search Pokemon. (Impossible, but might as well go for it)

7. Improve my writing skills.

8. Write a book that actually fucks up readers' head and make them rethink it for days. (kinda impossible as well, but I want to try)

9. Tone down my swearing

10. Try to make it for one month without cutting.

11. Improve my book cover making skills.

12. "fix myself" =_=

13. Stop crying almost everynight.

14. Don't pressure myself everynight worrying about my writing abilities

15. Control my fear and anxiety of receiving more hate or not receiving a comment over a chapter I worked hard on

16. Try to control fear over dark

17. Try to control jealousy and other dark emotions because of small things.

18. Try to reach at least 2 million reads with all my books combined.

19. Reach at least 400k comments on all books combined.

20. Smile more often.

21. Win a place in Pokemon Watty Awards or at least 3 Special Awards. (This is impossible as fuck =_= But I'll try to go for it. *prays Rin would be voted Best Main Character because it took all my soulsearching making her*)

22. Try not to run away from many things.

23. Try to open up to my family. (also impossible as fuck)

24. At least try to feel confident with myself and own talents.

25. Try to save lives just as I have been saved.

Ugh. Most of my goals are impossible =_= *bangs head on wall* I saw all my goals written in my diary (the paper one, not in Wattpad) and decided to show it here. Eheh. Some are lame as fuck, I know .-.

But still. . . If you guys don't mind, please help me accomplish a few .-. Because I know if I'm not inspired, the more tiresome it would be for me, so please help me out, because I need you guys for inspiration to move forward ^_^ Now I'm scared again .-.