Harry Styles Imagines

Before He Leaves For OTAT part 1

Harry's Pov

I was spending some well deserved off time in LA with my love y/n. I loves having time off and just getting a break from everything. But the time has come to get back to work & get on the road & preform again. I'm excited because we are going to different places we never been before & I'm excited. My love and I are flying back to London today because I leave this Wednesday to start touring.

We were on the plane & Y/n was more quiet than usual. She's been a bit clingy lately but that's not out of the usual. She always gets like that when I'm about to go back on the road. Her being clingy doesn't bother me by no means. I like when she's like that & I have to take full advantage of that now because after Wednesday I won't see her for another 5 months. It's going to be tough being away from her. I hate doing that but that's the life I chose & I have to do what I have to do.

I got up to use the toilet & I turned to look at Y/n & I saw her move.

Your Pov

I woke up from my sleep on the plane with tears in my eyes. Harry wasn't beside me. I was breathless but I had to pull myself together. I heard Harry coming back. I dried my tears & closed my eyes so he wouldn't notice I was crying.

Harry sat back down & pulled me to lay back on him & I did so. My head was resting right on his chest & my hand was placed softly on the other side if his chest.

"I love you so much" Harry whispered into my hair lowly so I can only hear him

That's when I cried. The tears streamed heavy down my face and onto his shirt. I used my free hand to cover my face & whip my tears away.

"Why are you crying?...whats wrong?" Harry asked full of worry

I couldn't gather any words to tell him what was wrong with me. I was so choked up.

"Love calm down...take a deep breath...& release babe. Everything is ok babe. I'm right here. Talk to me, you can tell me anything." Harry cooed

"I'm so sorry" I managed to say

"What are you sorry for?" Harry asked confused

"I'm sorry that I'm not strong for this tour" I said & I finally admit that. I hate that I feel so weak.

"Babe why do you feel the need to be like that? what are you talking about?" Harry asked removing my hand and then whipping the tears away & looking into my eyes. He was worried & he was frighten.

"It's just that.....its just so much stuff going on. It's all in the news & I'm scared you & the lads would be stuck somewhere & can't come home or you get sick, or get hurt....i just can't fathom if I were to ever find out you were hurt or stuck somewhere & you never can come back for me...i just can't fade this." I said and Harry keeps drying my tears that constantly kept falling

"I'm not happy at all about this tour & I feel so awful about that" I said

"Shhhhhh....its ok love" Harry said looking down at me & a tear was forming in his eyes I guess he understood my pain or maybe I am a bad girlfriend & he wants nothing to do with me.

"Everything is going to be ok my love" Harry said & then we just kind if stayed like this for the past 30 minutes of our flight.

I was scared because I expected Harry to say some words that will comfort me but right now I have no clue on what's going through his head right now & that worried me.

Once we landed we were greeted by multiple paparazzi & fans. Since they were properly barricaded & away from our pathway we kept straight to the car to take use back to Harry's mansion in London.

Once we got in the house we put our stuff away. For a moment I thought Harry was avoid contact with me because he couldn't look me in the eyes & that when I knew telling him how I felt was wrong. We finally got in bed together. Because I cried so hard & long today I had a headache so I was already dosing off to sleep. It wasn't until I felt Harry's warm presence consumed me & I was alert again.

"Are you still awake babe?" Harry asked softly

"Yes" I said & then turned over to him

"I hope you don't feel sad because you told me how you really feel" Harry said

"I do..I feel like I offended you &" I said honestly

"You didn't......i just had to take a stand still after you told me how you felt because I was upset seeing you so broken like that. I've never seen you like that before & it really got to me." Harry lead on to say

"I've been keeping that away from you for so long" I said

"I know...i just wanted you to know you have every right to feel like that. If you

were doing this I would be bloody sick worrying for you because I can't fathom if something was to ever happen to you. I really can't because I love you just as much as you love me.." Harry said then pushing a strand of my hair back & away from my face.

"I just want you to be safe, I'm worried extremely for you but I'm also worried for everyone els too" I said sincerely

"I know...& I can admit that I am a bit nervous about being in certain places but i just need you to trust me & trust our security. We have everything in place & we are going to make sure that we will always be safe. I'm going to come back home to you in one healthy piece. " Harry said assuring me that he was determined to do so.

"That's all I ask." I said lowly & then I moved closer to rest on him.

"I love you" Harry said

"I love you too" I said & then we both fell asleep.