Harry Styles Imagines

Things I Cant

Leaving another dinner function with Harry. I have the itis right now from eating all that good food. I was just looking out the window just reminiscing when life didn't feel so complicated. Trying to pin point when I started growing up. Pin pointing is something I have been quite often then needed.

I guess I'm just bumped about the uncertainty with Harry. How can you be with someone for almost two years & never say I love you.  I think by now he should love me like I love him. It took me awhile to fall in love but I did. Why doesn't he know now?

"Sleepy?" He asked me

"Yeah. It's been a long day" I mumbled

"I like cuddling you"

"Just talking about cuddling is making me even more sleepy "

Then we just went silent. I didn't realize I closed my eyes because the next thing i realized Harry shook me to wake up. He helped me info the house. We didn't pass go. We went straight into the the bedroom. After I stripped of everything I just got in the bed and went to sleep without another word coming out of my mouth.

The next morning I woke up & for once Harry was awoke beside me. I then went back to sleep for awhile but Harry woke me back up.

"Babe you want me to cook you breakfast?"

"No"I mumbled

Harry cuddled closer to me as I just laid their face down. I sat up a bit so I can rub my eyes & do a small stretch.

"I've been thinking about you all morning" he said

"Really now" I say nonchalantly. I know what hes going to say. He does this every Saturday. He has to talk about the I love you thing. How he's close to saying it & a bunch of blah blah blah blah stuff that doesn't even make sense. I'm usually not this nonchalant. I use to care when he would talk about it. But I guess this is officially were I feel like it is what it is at this point.

"I care so much about you. And you know that right?"

That was probably the only thing I caught of what he's saying. I just let him ramble on more. I don't really want to hear or talk about it. I just nod my head and say mmhm as if I'm really listening. Today probably isn't the day to spend it with Harry. I think I'll go to Cassie's for a few hrs. I hope Harry is doing something today.

"Y/n you not saying anything. I asked you what did you think about a intimate holiday together?"

"Why?"

"So we can get away & just be away from distractions. I really want to be with you & work on somethings between us....more so myself having to do with us"

"I guess it could be fun "

"What do you mean? You sound like you don't want to go"

"No I do. Don't get me wrong but you make me nervous when you say we take a holiday to go resolve issues. what does that suppose to mean?"

"Us getting closer. I feel like I owe it to you because of my short comings. I want to do this for us, so we can you know have some spark in us still"

"Oh.....well since you put it like that then ok" I said

"How are you able to put up with me, knowing I haven't said the words you are looking to hear? I'm just honestly confused because nobody would stay. Why would you?"

Oh I'm not staying long if you can't figure it out Styles. Trust me I will move on. Because you are close to wasting my time at this point.

"When you love someone you don't give up so easily. You give it chances. That's how love works to me. "

Thats my truth. I want us to work but I'm not going to kill myself if it doesn't. Harry maybe incapable of love right now. I might not be the one but how can I official write that off if I don't try. I understand where Harry is. I've been there. I have a hard time saying I love you. I rarely said it. Harry for me was an experience for me. I never been through what I've been through with Harry with anyone else. I felt love. That was a experience I never felt before. For him he must not have felt that yet or won't feel my love at all. So I try.

"That's something amazing"

"With love comes patiences. It takes time."

"What happens when my time runs out?"