Harry Styles Imagines

Its Well With My Soul

This will be the last time I say anything on this topic about Zayn unless something having to do with him is worthy to talk about. I heard the interview with Zayn this morning & I gots to tell you I feel like everything I said in the post before last was pretty much on point. Just when I thought there was hope. I really held out some hope that maybe Zayn just wanted to get his head on right. Maybe this is a dream, maybe this is a set up, maybe this can't be the end because Niall didn't cry on the last show with him. Maybe there is a plan but honestly i don't know & I honestly think it is what it is.

Hearing Zayn talk in the interview I honestly feel like he confirmed my initial thoughts. Now I understand that fame is not going to make you happy. Trust me I've met 3 millionaires in my lifetime. 2 who remained & one lost it all but said he couldn't be happier. I get that. However in the case of Zayn the thing I don't appreciate about Zayn is that he spoke as though he didn't know what came with the territory with being in the band. He talks as though he never had a lawyer present with him to go over the contract that signed. He consented to this lifestyle the moment he auditioned for X factor. So for him to come back 4 going on 5 years later to say it's "stress" I can't be myself im not "happy" because the music isn't what I want to do but granted you just decided to get involve with the writing but your stuff doesn't go in the first time around you throw a fit. With that being said I think that Zayn didn't have anyone good to influence him or didn't allow him to open up to say listen you can still keep your lively hood & if you make mistakes it's ok. We're human we all fall short & fall from grace but what you need to do is get back up & keep pushing further. Like I said before nobody around them couldn't have possibly said that.

I do believe he has some regrets & majorly I do believe that because suddenly now he is in the studio making music. At some point between the hours before the interview & he's leaving something hit in the head like music is all I have. I don't have a degree I gotta do something in my life & music is all I know. Now granted Zayn said he wanted to be normal remember. He is tired of living his life in the spotlight but now you saying you want to go solo? Why can't he understand that people will follow him even if he went solo or stayed your life is still in the life? So basically with all that being said Zayn really made a decision without a plan & that cost him a lot. It cost his integrity, money, fans, friends & music career. Zayn made a choice to not learn how to deal with the life he CONSENTED to create with one direction. I know Zayn didn't want to let anyone down. I believe that it's just sad he himself knows he doesn't make sense. Zayn doesn't even know how to handle his own decision.

Now I don't know if the interview was only 2 mins or more but for Zayn to not really talk to the fans in that 2 mins or not say anything of what the boys ment to them publicly really just makes me think we'll it is what it is. And where the Perrie is concerned I feel like if Zayn couldn't have gotten himself together a long time ago she should have been left. Fans already had the proof of the phone calls of him and other girls planing to meet up. If that wasn't enough to make you leave then why did you need to make a big deal now when you see the pictures. Then not only that Zayn if you don't want to be with her then just leave. It amazes me that you can find the strength to leave your livelyhood because it wasn't good for you but you couldn't leave someone who probably wasn't making you happy anymore & she couldn't have been enough because he kept messing up. Who basically didn't crack the whip on you to behave & Perrie never really made enough effort to be with you I mean her career is dying slowly but surely & I mean that with the most respect & that's not a shade it's the truth. Once her contract is up they will be dropped. Zayn obviously cracked under pressure anyway from his relationship with Perrie. I'm just saying not to be rude but things would have been easier if she wasn't with a group & not famous. Many say their relationship was fake but I believe that it's real because nobody would flee a country in mid tour if he wasn't cheating. Guilt leads to that im sorry I have the understanding that many of the younger fans don't.

So anyway I just want to say that with Zayn leaving it is well with my soul. I'm glad he wants to stick to what he knows because I truly believe he is insanely talented. So i am truly happy for him in that sense. In the midst of his don't make sense situation I never wanted him to give up on music because he spoke like he did so it's good to know he's not.

The main thing is now One Direction is still standing without him. I am going to support the ones that stayed, I'm thankful for them because no matter what they went through, when time for tough they defended fans & still stayed. I am going to eventually make it to a show & eventually meet Niall, Harry, Liam and Louis & move forward not use to seeing Zayn. & I will be use to smiling without Zayn being the reason too being the as well I smile. One day it will happen. But for now it is well with my soul.