THE SECOND MAJESTICAL RANDOMNESS BOOK IN THE MAJESTICAL RANDOM SERIES OF RAINBOW'S MAJESTICAL RANDOMNESS
and i leave you with some words of wisdom
"let's just say there's going to be a lot of ships"
-me, 2015
I had a sucky day at school that involved me feeling sick an hour and a half into the day and then sleeping for two hours. (Now you know why I'm so behind in lessons...)
I'm in the car as I write this, and my mom's driving me to my first physiotherapy appointment; for my knee, remember? Yeah, took 'em long enough. But we had a nice long chat, and I think we tracked down a few issues about me.
First: my wants and needs have been made subconscious. Basically, I don't react emotionally to what I want, insted, my body is affected. This means stomach pain. Lots of it. Yes, fun fun fun. But it also means I can't physically do something I don't want to, because my own body rebels. I'm not doing it on purpose, it's just happening to me.
Secondly: I have a slight case of depression. And when I say slight, guys, I mean slight. I'm not cutting or contemplating suicide or anything along those lines. It just means my entire plane of existence has flattened and blurred out and left me rather unable to give a fuck. I still feel happy, and sad, and all those lovely emotions, but it's harder now to feel them, and after I do feel them the experience kind of loses meaning. To sum it up: I no longer see much of the meaning in life.
Take this as you will, but I thought you should know. I'm in the hospital right now, waiting for my physiotherapy, so... I don't really know how to end this.
Have a stupid something-or-other from my download folder.
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