Stage name: Jonghyun
Birth name: Kim Jong Hyun
Music group(s): SHINee
Requested by: HuiXuan_
Dedicated to: HuiXuan_
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Without knowing, I was crying again. How could I tell Jong Hyun that I am diagnosed with lung cancer. And it was already the last stage of cancer. What's more, I'm pregnant. I did not want to go for treatment. I did not want to harm my baby, it would definitely die if I were to be that selfish to save myself instead of my baby.
I laid my hands gently on my 28-week-old pregnant belly. I squinted my eyes shut as more tears came, streaming down my cheeks as they land on my belly.
"I'm sorry..." I sobbed. "I should have known earlier."
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I did not want to talk to Jong Hyun. He would make me go for treatment. I did not want to harm my baby. I would die than to hurt my baby.
I would turn in before Jong Hyun would even return home. It had been few days since I last talked to him. I would sleep before he return, and wake up after he head out for work. I felt guilty. I did not want to do this.
I laid diagonally facing my right with my back facing the space where Jong Hyun always sleep. I heard the door creak open. I heard Jong Hyun yawn softly as he stepped in, trying not to wake me up. But how could I sleep, I would only pretend to be asleep.
He walked towards the space I was facing. I quickly shut my eyes and felt him caressing my face. I clenched my fists as I tried to be as natural as it would look.
"_______-ah... How many days has it been since we last talked?" Jong Hyun mumbled softly, barely audible. "I'm sorry I can't get off my work. I really sorry, but please be safe and take care of yourself and the baby too."
I held in the tears as Jong Hyun leaned forward to give me a kiss on my forehead before moving to the bed. I opened my eyes as I felt him crawl onto the bed and settled behind me. He wrapped his secure arms around my body as I felt warmed with his chest on my back.
I closed my eyes as tears fell.
***
"I'm sorry, your wife...is dead." the doctor announced.
"W-what?" Jong Hyun stammered as his knees buckle.
"I'm sorry." the doctor bowed.
"Why?! Didn't she successfully gave birth to the baby?! What was wrong?!" Jong Hyun yelled as tears wet his face in no time.
"Yea, she did. But she was already diagnosed with the last stage of lung cancer. There was only a choice she could make, either she give birth to the baby and die or abort the baby and go for treatment. But...sadly, she chose the latter." the doctor said in disappointment as he moved away.
Jong Hyun gasped in disbelief as he collapsed onto the floor, staring into space in disbelief.
"So...this was what you had always been hiding from me?" Jong Hyun brawled. "Why... Why _______?! Why didn't you go for the treatment?!"
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