Age doesn't matter age is just a number Cameron Dallas

Pain

Cameron walks away from me. I run into the bathroom and pull out a razor. I lock the door and start to cut. 

One for Cameron 

one for me 

one for the money 

one for my parents 

one for being ugly 

one for no one will love me 

one for having no talent 

and 

one for cutting again. 

I look down and see there is a shit ton of blood. I clean up all of the blood and pull my sleaves down once the bleeding stops. I walk out into the room and see no one is in there. I look in the parking lot and see Cameron's car is gone. I get my phone and I call the one person I trust. Hayes. I know that may sound stupid but Hayes can understand. Hayes cuts himself. I call Hayes and he says he is coming over to get me and that Cameron is no where to be found. I text Cameron and I tell him that he left and that we are over. I know he broke up with me by leaving but I wanted to make it official. Someone knocks on the door. I get up and open the door. Hayes pulls me into a hug as soon as I do. I hug him back and I start to cry on his shoulder. He is taller then Cameron so it is more like his chest. 

"Amber did you cut" he asks me and I nod my head "Listen to me Amber it is not worth it what so ever so please come back with me and we will talk to Nash and Taylor" Hayes says. I nod and we go back to the hotel

"Amber, Hayes told me what happened" Taylor says as we get into the car. Taylor and Nash are the two that I trust the most besides Hayes and Cameron, well not Cameron anymore. 

"I know guys" I say and Taylor starts to drive. 

"Amber I want you to promise me that you will never cut again" Nash says to me

"I can't promise that and you know it" I say and he looks at me from the passenger's seat.

"Amber I want you to promise you will do your best to at leave try not to cut" Hayes says 

"Fine I will do my best" I say and I see them all sigh. When we get to the hotel I see Cameron standing in the lobby through the windows. 

"Guys" I say

"I see him" Taylor says 

"See what" Hayes asks

"Cameron" Nash says 

"Oh" Hayes says

"Call Carter and Matt" I say and they do so. Carter and Matt come down and come to the  car. The five of them tell me they will not let Cameron near me. I trust them but I trust Hayes the most. I know what you are thinking, why Hayes? Because Hayes was tech my first and he also cuts and now that we are friends I trust him the most. When we get out of the car there are people with cameras. They are taking pictures and yelling things out. One thing really gets to me. 

"Amber how does it feel to date someone 6 years older then you who only wants you for sex" I turn and so does Carter. 

"Listen here, Just because Cameron and Amber got into a fight doesn't mean they are using each other for sex and trust me Cameron would never do that to Amber" Carter says

"Carter are you her side hoe" One reporter yells and not Taylor turns around

"I swear if you do not leave us alone we will call the cops and say you are stocking us because you really are" Taylor says and all the reporters go quiet. We walk into the hotel and then I see Cameron look over at me. 

"Amber" he says and I see Alex, Jacob, Shawn, Aaron, Jack, and Johnson standing with him. I look and they all look mad. 

"Amber we are not friends anymore" I hear Alex say. I look at him. I look at Hayes and he just stands there in shock along with Carter, Matt, Taylor, and Nash. 

"Why what did I do" I ask and now Shawn looks at me.

"You broke up with Cameron over text. You used him you bitch" Shawn says

"I thought you were more nice Amber" Alex says

"Bitch" I hear Jack say. I run away from everyone and up to the room Cameron and I were staying in before. All of his stuff is gone. I lock the door and find a razor. This is going to be painful. I cut a bunch I don't even count. I come closer and closer to my wrist and think. What would everyone do if I killed myself? Alex wouldn't care and neither will Cameron. But what about Hayes and Nash? Would they care or just see it as not having to take care of me anymore? I look down and make the choice to stop cutting and flush the razor. I walk out of the bath room and I see Cameron standing there. He looks like he is about to kill me.

"HAYES" I yell and then Cameron covers my mouth. 

"You bitch I how you fucking kill yourself the next time you cut! You shouldn't have broken up with me over text. Don't hold me to what I am about to say because I am going to warn you I am drunk. I love you Amber. But, Kill yourself" He says and releases me from his grip and walks out the room. Why didn't I kill my self when I had the fucking chance? I walk out of the room and go to find Hayes to tell him what happened. I look at my arm in pain and I see Cameron left nail marks in my arm. I wish I was dead. I wish the pain would stop. Pain. That is all I feel.