Age doesn't matter age is just a number Cameron Dallas

The fight with myself

"No" I say and walk back to where I was sitting down. Cameron walks over to it and picks it up and then walks back over to me. He looks at me and I can tell so I look up at him and then back down and feel bad. I feel like I am forcing him to buy me stuff and I feel really bad for it. I really don't want him to spend this much money. I would feel bad if he did and that is Even if it is on a pair of Dimond cat ears. When I was younger I had these cat ears that I got for Halloween one year. I loved them and then one day my parents said I was to old for them and threw them out. I have always wanted another pair of cat ears. I know it sounds stupid but it was my thing.
"Amber if you want these I will get them for you" Cameron says
"You don't have to, I really don't need them and there so expensive" I say
"Amber I don't mind you haven't asked for anything all day I don't care how much I spend I will buy them for you" Cameron says
"No Cameron" I say raising my boice a little
"Amber" he says also getting louder "I'm getting them" he says and walk away to go and pay. I'm so mad at him for that. He has spent so much money on me. I'm not going to let him spend a shut ton of money on me. I don't even know why he wants to spend any money on me at all.... I'm not really worth anything. No Amber stop. I'm here for a reason. But what is Cameron is just using me. What if .... Stop Amber Cameron loves you .... Does he? What if he cheated on me with someone and then doesn't tell me and one of the other boys tells me? What is Cameron just wants me for sex or the fact that I will have just as much money as him when Magcon continues? I mean he wouldn't spend this much money if he wanted me for money. Or maybe he is trying to trick me.... I should just cut again .... Wait Amber no cutting is bad! Really bad! I mean it might help though. It always helped in the past so why can't it help me now? But what would Cameron say if he found out I was cutting. He would most likely laugh and leave. That's what most people do. Most people think I am a freak and look at my scares and laugh at me. Would Cameron really do that? I wonder why Cameron even likes me. What is there to like about me? No Amber, Stop!!!! I have good things about me, granted I have more bad things about me but I still have good things. 

"Amber" Someone says snapping me out of my thoughts. I look up and see Cameron and I are back at the hotel we are staying at for the night. 

"What" I ask him

"Your mom texted you" He says holding up my phone. 

"Thanks" I say and gently take the phone from him being sure not to make him mad. I look at the phone and see I have a text from my mom, it says:

'You are a little slut you know that? I wish I had never adopted you! Why in the world would you think it is okay to date a 21 year old? I want you home NOW! Don't expect to have your phone either because you will have no contact with that boy. If you don't come home I will call the cops'

I start to cry.

"Amber, what's wrong" Cameron asks me. I hand him the phone and he reads it. When he is done he looks up at me "Amber she signed a contract she can't make you go home and as long as she doesn't find out we had sex there will be no problem" Cameron says 

"Okay" I say. I smile at him. Cameron really does care. Why was I so stupid to even think that he didn't love me? 

"Amber" Cameron says and I look up at him

"Yeah" I ask. He looks at me and he smiles. I do the same. "Can we go inside Cameron I want to show you something" I say

"Sure babe" He says. We go inside. When we get to the room Cameron picks me up, over his shoulder, and he brings me in. "What did you want to show me" He asks as he pushes me aguenst the wall.

"Put me down first" I say nervious.

"Why babe what's wrong?" he asks putting me down

"Well Cameron I need to tell you something and you have to promise not to yell or leave" I say and he nods his head "Well Cameron, you might hate me for this but I cut myself, like so much that one time I tried to kill myself and I still cut. I haven't cut since I met you in person but I cut and I have scares and no one would love a girl with scares. Right? Right. So that promise you just promised, not to leave, you can break that promise because I know that no one could love a girl with as many scares as me. I have them on my thighs, arms, and stomach. I hate myself so much, I really do. You can leave me if you want, I would leave me to, but first, tell me, tell me how much you hate me" I say looking down. After a few seconds I look up at Cameron and he looks really really really really mad. I can tell he will leave me now. I should have told him sooner so I didn't get so attached to him. I sigh. "Bye Cameron" I say and I look back down. I hear him move away from me.