euphoria ≛ bts 8th member series

◤solo song || FY : album|| palace || dedicated to jonghyun◢

warning : mentions of death , suicide , depression , emotional anxiety & panic attacks

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Briar was on stage by herself as requested as she sat on the single stool in the middle

"Hi , I don't know how to ease my way into this , so I'm just gonna—" Briar paused , mic in hand as she took a deep breath

"As most of you know a lot has happened in the kpop industry in the past week"

The crowd went silent , knowing where the girl was going with this

"I lost someone very important to me , my brother , my role model , my happy virus , my spirit" Briar said name by name

"Instead of ignoring the turn of events , I want to shed light on it , because I don't wanna fail anyone else" Briar's voice cracked slightly

"You're all worth it , and you have to keep pushing no matter what , it's important that you realize you're important"

"I have to face myself so , this song is dedicated to Jonghyun. I'm sorry I wasn't there , I'm sorry I wasn't—"

Briar stopped speaking , knowing that if she continued she wouldn't be able to sing the song she had wrote for him

And she had to sing this for him

The music started to play gently throughout the stadium as everyone turned on their Bangtan Bombs

It was silently lit and it was beautiful

"My head is filled with ruins , most of them I built with you , now the dust no longer moves , don't disturb the ghost of you , mmm"

Briar started softly as a few tears fell from her eyes already

"They are empty , they are worn , tell me what we built this for , on my way to something more , you're that one I can't ignore , mmm"

"I'm gonna miss you , I still care , sometimes I wish we never built this palace , but real love is never a waste of time , mmm"

Briar took the mic away from her face and looked up at the ceiling , trying to control her breathing and her tears

"Yeah I know just what you're saying , and I regret ever complaining , about this heart and all its breaking , it was beauty we were making , mmm"

"And I know we'll both move on , you'll forgive what I did wrong , they will love the better you"

Briar pointed to herself

"but I still own the ghost of you"

She pointed to the sky and let the music play for a minute , missing a few lines but she was feeling shorter and shorter of breath by the minute

"Sometimes I wish we never built this palace , but real love is never a waste of time"

The song was coming to an end as Briar stood up and slowly sat on her knees and looked up to the ceiling

"I'm gonna miss you , I'm still there"

With the way she was singing , you could tell she put all her hurt and emotion in this one performance

"Sometimes I wish we never built this palace , but real love is never a waste of time"

Her head fell as she looked to the ground

"But real love is never a waste of time"

The packed house erupted in claps but no one could cheer , they were all either crying or wound up with emotion

Briar stood up and without turning back to the crowd she walked backstage , not being able to control herself anymore

She was full on sobbing as she made her way to the empty dressing room

When she opened the door , it revealed Jimin and Taehyung , who were both in tears from the performance and circumstances

Jimin quickly stood up and walked over to the girl , hugging her as tightly as he could as she continued to sob into his neck , hiccups voiced from her mouth every now and then

Taehyung brought the two into his arms as he embraced the both as they all cried

After at least 6 minutes , they pulled away , knowing that the concert should be over by now

The door opened revealing the rest of the boys who walked over to the three

Briar , having calmed down a little , wrapped her arms around Jungkook as he embraced the girl

"It was a good song , you did good" Yoongi kissed the top of her head

"You're so brave"

Briar's tears continued to fall silently as the boys sadly looked at the girl , knowing this had a big impact on her

They didn't know what to do other than to be there for her no matter what

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hi , it's jj

i decided to make this chapter because lately i have been missing jonghyun a lot , so this chapter was my way of coping , i guess you could say

don't mistake this chapter as anything but a tribute to jonghyun , because that's all it is.

R.I.P Angel<3 You did well.