i can see you // 7th spam

i'm sorry for not being able to sleep... or blink... (100)

i almost had an anxiety attack today /:

my parents took me to a bank to pick up some of my money and i got two of my own credit cards and the bank was just so uncomfortable to be in and i was constantly shaking and moving my body weight from one leg to the other every other second (literally) and then my parents and the banker started joking around about how i'm a big girl now and i can pay for stuff with a credit card and how i'll be so cool between my friends and i literally couldn't smile nor say a word because i was shaking so much and my eyes were so unfocused and i just wanted out and i felt so embarrassed and ugh :<

then, we went to a photo studio to pick up some photos and on the way out my dumb, clumsy ass missed not one but two whole stairs but my spidey senses saved me and i landed on both feet