Shawn Mendes Imagines

Because I Had You (Part 1)

Hey so this is going to be two parts and it was originally going to be based off of the song If By Chance by Ruth B (love that song, you should listen to it), but then after hearing Shawn's bc i had you I wanted to add that in as well. So it's kinda a mix of both lol. Hope it's good x

*Shawn's POV*

I knew it had been almost six months, but I still wasn't over her.

At the time when we broke up, I thought it was the right thing to do, but that only lasted a little bit until I realized that it was a terrible decision.

I should've never told Y/n to leave, I should have told her I loved her and that we could work out our problems.

But I didn't.

And there was nothing I could do because soon she was dating someone else. I would see them out together all the time and I couldn't help but see their posts and selfies online. He was better than me in almost every way. He treated her like his queen. Not that I hadn't, but there was no way I could be him.

Even worse, I could tell that Y/n was happy with him. Sure, it made me happy knowing that she was happy with someone who really loved her and cared for her. However, every time I saw her smile it made my heart break just a little because I knew that I used to be the one who caused that beautiful smile.

All I wanted was her back, a gorgeous girl who I genuinely loved. I knew that I would probably never even have the chance to talk to her again, let alone get what we had back.

"Shawn, what's up?" my friend asked one day when hanging out together.

I glanced up at him sitting across from me and shook my head. "Nothing," I stated.

He sighed, "You really gotta get over her, man. You should go to a bar or something and find another girl. That would take your mind off her."

"Maybe I'll try it," I said, even though I knew that I wasn't going to. Even if finding someone else could help me forget about Y/n for a short time, I could never love her. Y/n would always be in the back of my mind and I wouldn't want to break someone else's heart.

"There's plenty of other people out there," he told me, "You'll find the perfect someone in no time."

"Yeah," I blankly responded and looked down at my phone screen. On it there was a picture of Y/n and the guy she was dating on Instagram. All I could do was stare at it and imagine that it was still me by her side.

*Y/n's POV*

One day, my sister and I were out getting lunch together. My boyfriend, Brad, was at his job and I hadn't seen her in quite a while so I wanted to catch up with her.

"How have you been?" I asked her once we took a seat in a booth at the restaurant.

"I've been good," she replied, "School has been a little hard and it sometimes gets to me, but other than that there's nothing bad going on or anything. What about you?"

"Well, I have to say I'm pretty happy right now," I smiled, pushing a piece of hair behind my ear, "Ever since Brad and I got together, things have been improving a lot. I feel a lot better than I did a few months ago."

"Can I ask you something, Y/n?" my sister asked.

"Of course," I said.

"Do you still think about Shawn?"

I had no idea how much those words could effect me. Those words and that one name. "Um..." I started, "I don't really. I don't miss him. We both went our separate ways and I'm happier without him."

I hated lying to my sister, but I just couldn't tell her that in the back of my mind, I still wished that Shawn and I could have another chance of being together. I was in a relationship and thinking of someone else is not something you should be doing while with someone.

I liked Brad, I really did, maybe even loved him. It felt like love to me. But whenever Shawn's name was brought up, there was a part of me that hoped something could turn back time and allow us to be together again. I knew it was all nonsense though, it would never happen.

"That's a good thing, I guess," my sister spoke, "I'm just glad you're happy, no matter what."

I smiled at her and mumbled a small thank you. Soon, the waitress brought our food that we ordered to the table and we ate while talking about various subjects. In a little more than half an hour or so, we were done eating and after paying the bill, I stood up to wait outside while my sister went to the bathroom.

I was walking while checking a couple texts on my phone when I bumped into someone, dropping my phone to the ground. "Shoot, I'm sorry," I apologized, kneeling down and picking it up.

"It's fine. I'm so-" They stopped talking and I wondered why. Looking up at them, I realized why.

"Hey," I said.

"Hey," Shawn breathed. He was looking at me with his eyes wide and he definitely wasn't expecting to run into me.

I hadn't seen him face to face alone since we broke up, six months before and I didn't want to be rude, so I decided to start a conversation with him. Or maybe it was more than that. "How are you?" I began.

"I'm okay," Shawn said, "Better now that-" He stopped, but I had a pretty good guess of what he was going to say. Better now that he's talking to me?

"Me too," I put in, "I should get going. My sister is probably ready to go." I was about to turn around, but stopped when I heard my name.

"Y/n," Shawn hesitated, "I know your in a relationship now, but I need to tell you this in case I never get to talk to you again."

"Okay," I said quietly as people walked around us on the sidewalk, "What is it?"

He bit his lip, "I need to tell you that if things don't work out with him, not that I'm hoping they don't but if they don't, I will be here for you. You'll still have a chance with me."

I was surprised to hear it, but it was a little comforting. "I'll keep that in mind," I answered, "Bye." From there, I turned around to go and find my sister, leaving Shawn behind.

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Part 2 coming as soon as I can <3