One Direction Preferences

94. Self Harm

Zayn: "Ugly, bitch, whore" that words again running through your mind. You know having a famous boyfriend like Zayn comes with benefits but you don't think your boyfriend like that, you love him with your whole heart but others think that you're just another girl that will destroy Zayn's image. So today you went to twitter, you saw again the tweets and comments that are solely dedicated to you "Hey bitch get away from Zayn!!!" "Worthless whore!!" "Gold digger!!" but you can't take it anymore. You promised Zayn that the hate will never get to you, but this is just enough for you so you decided to cut, it's not your first time so you knew what to do. Blood flowing through your wrists and ankles and you just cried on the bathroom floor, suddenly you heard Zayn came home. "Y/N I'm home!!!" he yelled but you just try to be quite so he won't notice you "Oh shit..." you heard him say and heard footsteps running towards you "No, no, no, no!!!" Zayn said while hugging you "Y/N please don't do this anymore.... I love you and you can talk to me anytime, just don't do this again ok??" he said while cleaning you up and you just sobbed on his shirt and talked about what happened.

Louis: Today, you and Louis are going to the beach to freshen up in this hot day of summer. You're really excited about it but you're insecure of what you look but Louis said that you're perfect no matter what. When Louis got up to go get some drinks for you two, someone approached you and said "Oh its this bitch again... Can you get away from Louis??? You're not good enough for him, you're not even that pretty nor have a good shape like Eleanor..." and she just walked away leaving you shocked. You normally get hate everyday, like everyone is comparing you with Eleanor and you're not good enough for Louis but this??? The girl hates you, approached you just to say that, that's enough, you said. You ran to your hotel room and went to the bathroom to self harm again. You thought that if Louis didn't find you, he will come back to the hotel room also so you immediately cleaned up as if nothing happened. Exactly after you finished, Louis came "Hey babe. Why did you leave??" he asked while sitting beside you on the bed "Sorry Lou I just a migraine attack." You lied "Oh... Are you ok now??" he asked worriedly "Yeah" you said while walking away to get some food but Louis grabbed your wrist and you yelled in pain "Louis!!!" he pulled you on the bed again to examine your body and he saw your fresh cuts "Oh baby... Please don't hurt yourself... I love you and it also hurts me if you're in pain, just talk to me ok???" he said while crying and hugging you "Sorry Lou... I love you too and I promise that I won't do this again." Then you two just cuddled and be open to each other from now on.

Harry: Harry has been acting weird lately, he came late yesterday and when he woke up today he just left you without saying anything. He must have left his phone because when you tried to call him, you heard his phone ringed on the bed side table then you saw a message "Hey babe last night was great. Can't wait to see you tonight J" then you started to cry. Harry is your everything and you didn't even knew that he found someone better than you so you started to cut and cried your eyes out. Then Harry came home early and you barely even knew that he came "Babe you here??" he asked "Get away from me!!!" you yelled from the room, Harry rushing towards the room and when he got there he started to cry and hugged you. "Y/N!!! Why would you do this???" "Because you don't care about me anymore...." "Y/N I'm sorry.... I love you please forgive me" then he cleaned you up and never did this again to yourself.

Niall: You two went shopping today, you can't help but feel insecure because some blondes whispering about you "Yuck!! Niall don't deserve her..." one said "She's not even pretty like us..." another said. You just ignored it but when you two came home, you decided to cut but before you did that someone stopped you "Y/N don't!!!!" you heard Niall say. Then you dropped the blade and started crying, he hugged you and hide the blade "Y/N why?" "Because others say I'm not good enough for you..." you said still crying then he faced you and wiped your tears "Y/N don't listen to them... They don't know you and remember I love you" and then you two kissed.

Liam: "Y/N don't!!!" Liam shouted behind you then you threw the blade as if you're doing nothing "Li- Liam..." you choked then he just hugged you tightly and kissed your forehead. "Y/N why are you doing this??" he said while crying "They said I'm not good enough for you and I'm just nothing..." "Y/N I don't care about what they say about you. I love you and the truth is you're good enough for me..." "Liam....." you hugged him as tight as you could and when you pulled away he just laughed and you promised to him not to self harm again.