Brace face, ugly, nerd, a nobody, disgusting, know-it-all, are just a few nicknames I get called at school. My life isn't easy I never said it was. Life will throw you a curve ball, it will throw you on the ground over and over again. Even though yo...
Extremely glad that today is Sunday and I have no school. I rub my eyes having a huge headache. I barley slept last night, I woke up either screaming or crying cause of nightmares.
I go to my closet and pull out my stuffed bunny that my mom gave me when I was 6. I usually used him when I was scared but I forgot about him until just now.
His name was BearBear even though he was a bunny. I was 6 give me a break.
I look in the mirror and look even worse than I normally do. My hair is all over the place, I have massive bags under my eyes along with black circles and my eyes are all red. I'm a mess, and not a hot one.
I put my hair in a pony tail and throw my glasses on walking to the bathroom and collapse to the floor crying.
I you know, did more things to my arms. Even though I promised Jason I wouldn't. But I mean he promised me he wouldn't leave me for anyone or anything and he broke that so it wouldn't matter if I broke this one.
The thing is, Kasey is extremely pretty, no wonder why he chose her over me.
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(Kasey looks like this, played as: Gabbiee Gonzalez. Instagram: gabbieegonzalez)
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(If you were wondering this is what Alexandria looks like, played as: Ava Stanford. Instagram: ava_stanford. Btw I have nothing against Ava, I think she is extremely pretty so no hate)
I sat there and took out my razor once again and did few more 'you know.' I wrapped it in more bandages and pulled my sweatshirt down.
I heard a knock and I ignored it knowing it's Jason. But I heard it again. I peeked out the window and it was his parents. I opened it up and they smiled at me.
"I didn't know you guys came back" I said.
"We came back yesterday actually" his dad said.
I nodded and I sighed.
"Listen I'm sorry ab-"
"No don't apologize. He chose a prettier girl than me. It's ok I guess, Noah was right it was all part of his plan to make me fall for him and him break my heart. But I guess I'm used to people who I care about leave me. Like my best friend Sophia, my mom, my dad and now him. So I hope you guys have a great day, take care" I croaked.
I closed the door and locked it. I slid down the door and start crying again.
Have you ever fell in love?
Have you ever been extremely happy after having the worst years of your life? Meeting someone who finally made your day 10x brighter just by being near you? Smiling? Texting you?
Me too.
But have you ever had your only source of happiness leave you? Have you ever had them suddenly go away without saying a word and just leaving you to pick up your own pieces?
If you haven't, don't go through it. It's the worst thing in the world. It's the worst thing to have your happiness, the person you love leave you for someone else. Leave you for someone who is way better than you will ever be.
I can never beat that, I can never be pretty, I can never have the perfect body, or family, or house. I'll never have any of that.
Leave it to the bad boy to break your heart.
Cause why would the bad boy fall in love with the nerd?
How come I, the Nerd, can be so stupid to fall for the Bad Boy. I'm suppose to be smart, but yet I'm stupid enough to do this.
I'm stupid enough to fall for his tricks. I'm stupid enough to even believe that he wanted to be with me.
Silly me.
As my mom always told me "never let a boy break your heart within a few seconds because it took me 9 months to form it."
But yet I did exactly that. --- I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter💕 3-7-18
