Tet Talks About Nothing

hhhhh (vent)

Did I ever tell nyall about my constant fear of inadequacy and my taking inferiority complex? Cuz it kept me up all night. I was just thinking about why I can't accept complements?

I love attention, I love getting complements but sometimes I just can't accept them? when I vent about how I feel really lonely and second best, a some people come to comfort me. But it just doesn't feel... right. I know their comments are genuine but, I just can't accept them. I guess I just want to deserve it?

That's another thing that kept me up last night. Deserving stuff. I don't deserve anything, really. I'm not that great of a person, and I'm not good at anything. I always feel bad when people do things for me. Sometimes I feel so guilty that i cant do art trades with people i don't very well, cuz I feel like they have so many other things to do. I just feel like an inconvenience.

I always feel like an inconvenience. Mostly because of my sister. And people at my school. People just get tired of me and leave me behind. And I'm really scared to talk to people, because I know they'll get tired of me too. Or they won't like me in the first place.

Sigh I talk too much