Save Me From Myself

The Hero Hit Zero

Marinette POV

I was just done. My mind has given up on me. I felt like I was going insane. Like I would just completely laugh next time I slit my wrist. I can't deal with the torture anymore. I keep looking for a light to tomorrow but it's just gone. I'm giving up on me. I want to be gone. I gripped the pen tightly in my hand. After a reassuring breath, I started on the first letter.

Dear Maman and Papa,

I'm sorry. I can't be here anymore. This isn't your fault. Please never think this is. It's my fault. I've been lonely. And in a lot of pain. At this point, I don't really see a purpose for me to...live. I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve to have you as my parents. I don't deserve any of this. I'm sorry that I haven't been a great daughter. I'm sorry I closed myself off from you. Maybe, Monroe will be a better daughter. Adopt her and give her a happy life. She deserves to be happy. I love you. I love you beyond words. Goodbye.
Love ,your daughter,
Marinette Sabine Dupain-Cheng

I folded up the paper and wrote 'Maman and Papa' on it. I moved that letter to the side and moved on to the next, no hesitation so I didn't give up on my plan.

Dear Alya,

Hey girl. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that I'm being selfish. You have always been there for me and I know that I'm going to be putting you through pain. You are such an amazing best friend and I love you more than words can describe. Thanks for the friendship, thank you for the smiles. Thank you for the love you showed me. True my heart is broken, and yes, my eyes did cry. But the pain is over. I will cherish the moment I met you forever. I love you, goodbye.
        Love, your best friend,
                                Marinette

Dear Nino,

Hey bro. I guess we're not going to go see the Jagged Stone concert together later this year? Heh, yeah. I'm sorry. When you go though, remember me. I will forever remember when you introduced me to Jagged's music. We were one of his first fans and people thought we were crazy when we talked about how amazing he is. We proved them wrong. I'm sorry that we did stop talking for a year after an argument, I'm just glad I'll go with you as my friend. I'm sorry that this is goodbye.
              Love, your friend,
                                  Marinette

Dear Snow,

I know this must seem weird since we haven't been friends for very long. I'm just glad that I met you. You sacrificed a lot for me, and for that I am grateful. You've been there and defended me and even gave away your biggest secret. I know you are brave, so please take care of Alya, Nino, and Adrien when I'm gone. Thank you, I'm sorry.
Love, your friend,
Marinette

Dear Tikki,

My sweet kwami. I wish I could've been better, braver, stronger. But this is a battle I can't continue. It's too hard and I don't want to suffer anymore. I love you so much my dear kwami. I am so sorry that I can't keep on. Please give the earrings to Chat so he can return them and you to the guardian. Goodbye, Tikki.
            Love, your friend and Ladybug,
                               Marinette

Dear Chat Noir,

Thank you for keeping me company during the really hard nights. Please don't cry, just look up at the stars and say goodbye. I'm sorry that this is the way you're going to find out who I am. Please continue to fight for Paris. I'm sorry that this letter is short, but I have no words to describe how much pain I'm in and how sorry I am. Goodbye. I love you, kitty. I will always be your bugaboo.
            Love, your best friend and partner,
                                  Marinette