Bullshit

Chapter 8

"WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SEE HARRY!"  I heard one of  managments workers yell at me through the phone. I think his name was Mark? Mike? Something like that, I don't really pay attention to pointless names. 

"Listen Mike-"

"Its Mark! And I don't want to hear anything from you Styles! Do you have any idea how much trouble your in right now! I swear to god! Do you know how much planning we'll have to do to cover this up!" He screamed.

I pulled the phone away from my ear and let out a soft sigh. I had to much to think about without the office jerk yelling his ear off. Once I heard the yelling subside I put the phone back onto my ear. 

"Do you understand?" he asked inbetween breaths. He probably ran out of air from all of his yelling.

"Yeah, one hundred percent." I lied.

"Good. We'll talk later." He said before hanging up the phone. 

I let out a sigh of releif and looked over at Liam and Niall. They had worried expressions on their face, and to be honest it warmed my heart to know that they still cared for me, even after everything they found out about.  

"Its fine guys, just a bunch of yelling." I fake chuckled.

Aparently my fake happiness was beleivable because both Liam and Niall nodded.

"So, what do you guys want to do?" I questioned. 

Liam and Niall looked over at eachother, a guilty expression on both their faces. Liam rubbed the back of his neck and looked over at me.

"Me and Ni are going out tonight to some beach concert tonight. We thought that it'd be nice to go to one, instead of perform at one." Laim told me. 

"Well thats okay I guess. I'll just tag along." I smiled.

An even more guilty expression formed on their faces. 

"We only have two tickets mate." Niall admitted. 

"Oh..." I muttered, looking down at the ground. 

"We don't have to go if you don't want to!" Liam said. "We could all chill here."

I shook my head and fake smiled up at them. 

"Nah, its okay. Don't worry about it." 

"God, I feel so bad. I mean we don't have to leave we can all stay here and watch a movie or some-"

I cut Niall off.

"Guys, its fine! I totally understand. I'll just chill here and watch some movies or something." 

Liam let out a deep sigh. "You sure mate?"

"Possitive, go have fun at your concert." I told them.

They both nodded and grabbed their coats. "Once you start to feel lonely call one of us!" Liam exclaimed before leaving the hotel.

I let out a huff and looked around the empty hotel. Zayn and Louis had left to go on a double date with Eleanor and Perrie, they weren't going to be back until at least past midnight, and it was only ten. As much as Liam and Niall say they aren't bothered by me being gay, I know their just saying that because their my friends. Other wise they would have invited me to the concert, they wouldn't have left me alone like this. I grabbed my laptop and sat down on the couch in a heap, turning the T.V on some stand-up comedy channel. Once my computer loaded I clicked on twitter.

As soon as my eyes saw the words on the screen I knew that this was a bad idea.

Fucking Faggot! Go to hell! 

Dont you dare take Louis away from Eleanor you dick!!!

Leave the band before you spread your gay germs!

WTF! Why is he crying! Pssy!

Wow, just wow. You have lost all my respect....

How the hell do they pt up with him???

I told u he was a faggot!

Poor Louis, he must be sooooo embarrased.

Kill yourself faggot!

There were a lot more after that. Tweet after Tweet they kept pouring in, there was so many I stopped counting after one hundred. And this was just in the past five hours.  Of course there was the occasional tweet standing up for me and it made me feel happy knowing I had real fans. But the majority of the tweets were cruel. Filled with fans expressing their hatred towards me and gays.

I tried to hols but the tears, but I just couldn't. I've never heard hate like this since that one performance I screwed up on What Makes You Beautiful. But then he didn't have to deal with it alone, he had four shoulders to cry on. Four pairs of arms to hold me and make me feel loved, and most of all I still had Louis. But now here I am in an empty hotel room, all of my 'best friends' were out somewhere, basically avoiding me.. 

I took a deep breath and tried to stop the violent crying, the lump in my throat making it un almost impossible for me to breath. I was gasping for air, clutching onto his chest. The pain that I was feeling was to strong right now. 

The past month has been complete hell for me, not only had Louis very openly denied me and basically tore my heart out of my chest and stomped on it. I had lost my virginity to a complete stranger, a public video of my crying over Louis was every where and bassically half of our fan base was beating on me. It was to much, it felt like the worl was suffocating me, I needed some air. 

I walked out onto the balcony and took in deep breaths of the cuty air, which honestly didn't make me feel better at all. I wiped the tears out of my eyes and looked down at the large height I was from the ground. It was a high fall, probably would take about ten seconds for someone to reach the bottom. I ket out a gulped and looked over the edge and cotemplated it.

It would probably be onyl a second or two of pain before I died, it would be quick and bassically painless. Nobody would really miss me, Zayn wouldnt have to avoid me and his faggot ass. Liam and Niall wouldn't have to worry about me constantly breaking down and doing something. And Louis, oh Louis. He could finally be happy without me, he could be with Eleanor and forget about me.. 

I knew that my family would be upset, but they could get over it. After all I barely came home much anymore, it couldn't be that hard to get used to me not being there anymore. 

I nodded to himself and stepped over the bar, the back of my heels on the patio and my hands on the bar. "I love you so much Louis." I whispered softly into the wind.

I closed his eyes and got ready for the fall.

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