You woke up to the sound of TV being played on full sound hearing the same thing over and over again as the voices became one annoying you. You opened your eyes slowly regaining your sight from the blinding lights. Your roommate and other girls were gathered around the TV some had a shocked look on their faces while others were chatting away. " He finally got caught " You distinguished YeoJin's voice, your roommate as she spoke shaking her head. " I heard they've been dating for 6 months now " an unknown voice added. Who ? What are they talking about? You sat up thinking to yourself before turning your attention to the red stripe on the screen reading Breaking news : Popular boy group Bangtan's Rapper Suga spotted on late night date with unknown woman. Your eyes widened " When did this happen ?" You said your voice still raspy from sleep. YeoJin turned to you and smiled " You're up ? We have to go, dance class is in 20 minutes." Soon after that the room was deserted and you were left alone to change your clothes. I hope this doesn't affect kookie you thought. He was the only one you knew personally in BTS as you met him four years ago when you were both trainees. He was in the first line-up and you had just joined the agency, and you two have been friends ever since. You put on an oversized white T-shirt that covered your upper body to the middle of your thighs belonging to your older brother, which you took without his knowledge, paired it with black tights and sneakers of the same color. You made your way towards the agency's building which was the one next to the dorms. As soon as you walked in you were met with chaos as TVs were being played in every corner with occasional screaming and scolding coming from here and there, and people running around. You took the elevator to the 2nd floor, where the dance studios, are stretching. The elevator's door opened and before you could raise your head. " Y/N ! " Someone from the otherend called cheerfully, you would recognize this voice anywhere it was jung kook with his bunny smile pulling you out of the elevator his hand gripping your arm tightly. You smiled " Yaah ! At least you remember my name " You nudged him with your shoulder lightly. " I've been busy, you know not everyone is lazy like you" You pouted glaring at him before the thought of the morning's news ran through you head " By the way, are you guys okay ? I heard about Min yoongi's scandal " He frowned then shook his head " It will be okay, I'm sure they will figure it out. ". " uh ..." Before you were able to say anymore he gave you a quick hug " Y/N, I have to go now, the hyungs are waiting for me. See you later ! " He said as the elevator's door opened again and he went in waving you goodbye. You waved back before sighing. Jung kook was always the boy you had a crush on ever since you met him but couldn't admit to it.
You stood in front of the iron door for a few seconds staring blankly with a silly smile on yourself. Taking a deep breath you walked to the studio's door. You can see the girls inside stretching and getting ready through the glass. The five of you were part of the main line-up preparing your debut for early next year and were all working hard to be prepared for it, but, most of all excited you will finally be able to stand on stage after all the hardship you went through to get where you are right now. The music started and so did the stomps on the ground as everyone moved around in the harmony of the choreography you were practicing. Scent of sweat filled the room as you practiced for hours. Suddenly, the door was opened and the music stopped. A man in his early thirties walked in, you could tell he was Bangtan's manager from the numerous encounters you had while walking around the building. " Y/N-shi ..." He said in a deep roughened voice, probably by years of smoking, as he looked around for the response. You held your hand up turning his attention to you " Yes, That's me !" You replied in a high pitched tone. " Come with me, please. The president want to see you." He said as he walked out. You looked around your eyes questioning everyone in the room searching for information only to be met with the same gazes. " I'll be back " You said as you grabbed a towel following the man in a hurry.
The walk to the president's office was short but felt long and slow. It was never good news to be called there, if it wasn't to get scolded it would be to ... get kicked out you whispered to yourself almost soundlessly. " It's not that, don't worry too much " You stared up at him before coming to a halt In front of the big black door. The manager opened the door signaling you to go in. You bowed your head to him before walking in.
To your surprise you were met with Jung kook's shocked eyes as he pointed his finger at you " Yah, what are you doing here ? " You stopped for a moment " Kook-ah ..." You looked around, all the members were scattered around the room. And, in the corner, on a wooden chair sat Yoongi with his hands on his head as he leaned back. " Y/N, Take a seat, we need to talk" The president spoke with a big grin on his face, it was almost scary to look at him. You passed jung kook your hand rested on his arm as you flashed him a quick smile before sitting down in front of the middle aged man behind the desk. Your hands rested on your knees while you avoided making eye contact with anyone in the room. " I'm sure you heard out Yoongi's ... misfortune, as it was broadcast through through all the stations" You didn't say anything just nodded " In a couple of hours, we will be announcing the identity of the woman who was with him. " You looked up at him, staring for a moment " What does it have to with me ?" He sighed annoyed at you " Let me finish! In the report it's going to say that he was with a trainee." He stood up taking a few steps towards you and putting his hand on your shoulder, you squeezed the towel in your hand, you somehow knew what he was going to say. " We want that trainee to be you. This of course is an offer which you can decline if you wish. However, agreeing will bring you benefits while saying no ... well, I'll leave that to your imagination." His grin forever dawned on his sly looking face. You stood up letting his hand fall from your shoulder , in disbelief that they would ask you such a thing, " I can't do it ! " You spat out turning towards the door. " Then, you can carry around the weight of having been able to stop BTS from being ruined and you did nothing. ". Upon hearing those words you looked up at jung kook his worried eyes fixed on the floor, and you sighed. " If I agree, what do I have to do ? " He chuckled going back to his seat " That's more like it, You only need to take a few pictures, be seen with him whenever we want it and keep it a secret from everyone else. Nothing big." You glanced over your shoulders back at the Youngi, who lowered his eyes when they met yours, then at the man " Fine, I'll do it" you breathed out. " Great ! Now, all of you go to studio B and wait for more information." Jung kook pulled your arm wrapping his around your shoulder as he walked next to you, leading you out of the room. No one dared to speak a word, you went ahead with jungkook while the others followed right behind you, apart from Yoongi who was far behind walking slowly his minty green hair hiding his face as he held it low. " Y/N, Are you sure about this ?" Jung kook whispered into your ear as he kept his gaze away from you. You looked up at him and gave him a faint smile " If it will help you, I'm ready for it " You replied causing a clear blush on his face. " Are you two dating or what ?" You heard a voice from behind calling to the two of you, it was Jimin. Jin added " Stop with the cringe worthy sight, you brat in front of hyung! " This caused everyone to laugh as kook slid his hand off of you the blushing lingering for a moment as you giggled. He opened the door as you went in first, waiting as everyone was already into the room before locking it.
The first phone rang, then the second, and everyone's phones received a notification. Suga confirmed to be dating trainee Y/N, Big Hit speaks up about it. You always dreamed of reading your name is a news article but this wasn't quite it. Awkward silence took over as everyone was again avoiding eye contact with everyone. You sighed covering your face with both your hands sitting down on the cold floor your head leaning back on the wall as you closed your eyes. The silence continued only to be broken by the sound of Yoongi's ringtone blasting full sound. He took it out of his pocket, it was his girlfriend. He looked at the phone for long lasting seconds then turning it around on the chair to silence it. " You should pick up, hyung. She must be freacking out! " Jimin said as he handed him the phone again. " Mind your own business !" Yoongi screamed hitting Jimin's hand making the phone fall towards you. It was the first time you heard words coming out of his mouth during this whole time. You flinched as the loud thud of the phone hitting the floor. You stood up, and the door opened " As you can see, everything was sent to the press. Now, boys, your schedules for the week has been canceled. Take it as a little ... vacation." Causing the boys to scream all at once refusing the decision. He put out his arm shushing them " As for you, Y/N, you can carry on with your classes, and that's all. Head back to the dorms guys."
A million thought went through your mind at that moment and you just couldn't figure out why they chose you and not one of the other girls. What were you getting out of this ? Jung kook was probably the only reason that came up to you. And you found yourself with that same old silly smile thinking about what Jimin and Jin said earlier, and that blush...that blush on your best friend's face. But, then again, now that you were " Officially" Suga's girlfriend you had less chances of being his, not like you had strong ones before. You were drawn back to reality as Yeo Jin came running to you shaking you hard and screaming " Is it true ? Was it you ?". You wished you could tell her the truth, that it's all a lie, but you couldn't so you just nodded. " That's really low of you, Y/N, I can't believe you didn't trust me enough to tell me this." She let go of you pushing you back a step " Sorry " you mumbled as you walked past her towards you room. You didn't know how you got there or how long it took you to do so but there you were. Standing in front of the door to your empty dorm room as Yeo Jin decided to crash over at the other girl's room, upset. You turned the door nub and walked into the dark room, you didn't even take the time to turn on the light as you knew your way to the bed and just crashed, falling into deep sleep.
The next day
You made your way to the rehearsal room as the end of the month evaluations were in the next few days and your team was getting ready. As always, you walked by the glass to seem them stretching but, this time, it was different. The four girls were gathered around with upset, you knew it was about you. You breathed in as you went in your hands buried deep into your sweater's pockets, you looked at them and breathed out as they scattered around you ignoring your presence. The song that you've been rehearsing for a couple of weeks now started playing. It was none other that BTS's Danger. What a choice you thought to yourself while matching the steps with everyone else.
Suddenly, you felt a small push from your side that made you trip and fall. The next thing you felt was the touch of the hard cold ground and a severe pain in your ankle. You glared up at Yeo Jin To which she shrugged " I slipped sorry, Y/N ". You got up on your own, the once excited rehearsal room was now cold towards you. Everywhere you turned you would be met with glares. It was hard to step on your foot as it felt like someone was stabbing you over and over again. However, you couldn't stop, you couldn't say anything.
In what felt like days, the training came to an end and everyone walked out the room leaving you behind. You stepped, or more like dragged yourself to the corner where you sat on one of the chairs. You held back the tears by closing your eyes. It hadn't been a day and already you've had enough.
You took your phone into hands and started browsing through the articles about you, always ending up in the comment section. There were all kinds of comments but most of them were bashing and harsh. The ones who stood out the most were Kill yourself and who do you think you are to be dating him ? You loser. However, that didn't mean that the others were nicer. You felt stuffy and wanted to just disappear.
Things were not going to get better for you, and you knew that very well.
A few days later :
The scandal calmed down a little more than it was in the first three days and the media was paying a lot less attention to it as long as the members didn't appear on shows. The management team was releasing the picture you took with Yoongi. You scrolled through them walking down the hallway to the evaluation room. You two look all merry and happy in them but reality was so different. You didn't want to look at them for more than mere seconds but anything to keep your mind off the evaluation, you're about to take, you were going to accept it. You ankle wrapped in bandages, you still found it very difficult to move around let alone sing. Just a little longer you kept reminding yourself every time you sensed the wave of pain traveling up your spine Just a little longer.
Until now, you and Yoongi didn't really meet unless it was to take picture or to randomly stroll around the street for the two of you to be seen together.
11 AM :
Your team is up next. You haven't really been practicing with them lately as they practically kicked you out of the training studio every time you stepped into it. You glanced over at the figures scattered around the room. Everyone was there, the other trainees, the managers and the president and his personal staff. Everyone's eyes were on you. At least that's what it felt like. As if they weren't enough second before they cue for your team to start all the members from BTS walk in and take seats. They normally don't come to these evaluations unless they have nothing else to do.
The music starts ... You step to the front for your part and it suddenly hit you ... This was not the song you been practicing. It's not Danger, It's not even a Bangtan song. You froze in your place and tears came to your eyes, too quickly for you to stop them. You buried your face into you hands as the others kept going from time to time bumping into you. Jung kook was about to stand up from his seat when a loud pound on the judge's table made everyone in the room stop " If you're not going to dance LEAVE ! Don't just stand there like an idiot ! " The president screamed at you making the tears flow even more. You took a few steps back and glanced over at the members, you were embarrassed, scared, and most of all wronged. You met Yoongi's lifeless eyes staring at you as if mocking you. You turned around and ran for the door, with every step you took, it felt like needles were being pushed into your leg. Jung kook Sprung up from his seat only to be pulled back by Namjoon " Sit still " He whispered to him.
You felt alone, more than ever, no one was there for you. The thought of Yoongi came to your mind, that look he had on his face when he stared at you. Something inside felt broken, you knew, he was probably thinking Who do you think you are to be my girlfriend ? Kill yourself It was like he was the incarnation of all those comments. You hated him, this was all his fault. The tears wouldn't stop and so did you. You just kept on walking, not knowing where. You reached the inside stairs where no one ever goes and sat on the humid, cold and lonely floor your knees to you chest.
1 PM :
Time passed and you were still in the same position, your eyes now dry and a blank expression took over your face. You heard something coming from down stairs. Footsteps growing louder and louder as they walked up to you but then stopped. You stood up worried someone might see you there, it would be even more embarrassing to be seen like this. At first, who ever it was, were speaking quietly but all of a sudden their screams were getting louder and louder. You knew that one of the voices belonged to the Manager. You couldn't not know the rough deepened voice. Who's that with him? You peeked through the steel handle to see who it was ... Yoongi.
" You need to break up with her ! And start thinking of Y/N as a girlfriend because you'll be stuck with her for no "
" I can't do that ... NO ... I won't do it. "
" We went through so much trouble to get you out of this. Even to the point of destroying Y/N's career "
Destroying my career ? Those three words repeated themselves in you mind. Curiosity was urging you to stay and listen more while you couldn't, you couldn't hear what he was about to say.
" I don't care about some trainee that doesn't even know how to dance. Find a solution Hyung. I can't deal with this "
And there were the words you feared the most, the judgment of a member in a group who inspired you so much. The words sunk deep into your mind breaking your heart into pieces as you exited the stairs back into the main building. You have a new message The screen of your phone lit up in your hand as you leaned back against the stair's door. It was getting usual for you to get called around and this time ... as well ... they wanted you all to gather in the dancing studio. You were only a few steps away from it so you were the first to arrive there. You sat in the corner holding back your tears with long deep breaths. Next it was Yoongi who entered the room. He looked at you as if in disgust " You again " he mumbled under his breath but you could hear him clearly you just chose to ignore it. He sat across from you on the other side paying more attention to his phone not glancing at you once. Silence.
The rest of the members all came at last. Jung kook made his way towards you first, with his smile brightening your mood slightly " Are you okay, Y/N ? " He said wrapping his arms around you tightly as he knelt in front of the chair. You eyes were watering again, but you didn't want him to see your tears " I'm fine, I was just taken aback back there, don't worry about it " You smiled even though it was hard for you as he pulled back looking at you. " Why did they call us in ?" Jimin asked annoyed. " Probably because useless over here has done something wrong." Yoongi replied, when you looked at him and knew he was referring to you. It was the last straw, the drop that flooded the cup. " Did you just call ME useless ? This is all because of YOU. Because you couldn't keep your relationship a secret, even dragging me into this your shit. " You screamed back at him a teardrop betraying you and falling down your cheeks. You limped over to him " Why the hell do you think you're that important ?" You said just a few steps away from where he was seated. He stood up pushing the chair against the wall " Don't provoke me!" his eyes clearly filled with anger as he stepped towards you. " Or what ?" you replied, but even before you could finish you sentence he grabbed your shoulders tightly turning you towards the wall behind him and pinned you to it. " I said, don't " his eyes were red with furry and you could sense his warm hands on your shoulder. " Yoongi, let go, you're h-hurting me." You pleaded. " Shut up!" He said as he pulled you towards him then back at the wall. You collapsed on the ground, it was painful. His eyes shifted to you as tears ran down you cheeks even more, they seemed to have settled from the anger showing a slight guilt. Jin was quick to walk in between you pushing Yoongi back as rap monster grabbed him from behind trying to calm him down. You felt a gentle hand pull you up and supporting you, you knew it was jungkook, but you didn't glance up at him. You didn't dare. You pulled your arm away from him violently before pushing yourself away. " I-I'm sorry Y/N, It got out of hand. I'm really sorry." Yoongi said as Namjoon let go of him. You didn't care anymore, you just wanted to walk out that room as quickly as possible. You glanced up at Suga as you passed him you eyes blank but slowly losing you sense of sight as everything became blurry, maybe it was the tears but after a few steps only your knees couldn't hold you up anymore. Everything seemed out of place, stuffy and hidious. At that moment, you just wanted to die. One more step you though to yourself before falling to the ground having fainted from exhaustion. The last image you saw before completely lost consciousness was Yoongi rushing towards you and then ... darkness.
