Adopted by Olivia Benson: Part 2

If You're Happy, I'm Happy

*Olivia's POV*

Three months passed. Time got closer and closer to my due date and still no Elliot. No call. No visit. Just nothing. As Blake got closer to Bentley, she questioned me about me and Elliot's relationship. I just came out and told her the truth. She seemed pretty upset about it and said that Elliot was the only man she'd ever trusted. Her words echoed in my head. "How could you let him go? I loved Elliot, mom!" Blake started to cry. "I trusted him and he was a good guy. I know what bad guys look like and I know I treated him badly at times but I actually liked him."

I turned in my side and grabbed my phone. I went through old pictures of Elliot and I. God, I missed him. His touch. His smell. His smile. I missed it all.... especially the sex. Since the baby, my hormones had been flying through the roof and the best I could do to calm down was take a cold shower. I can't count the nights I've woken up in the middle of the night, moaning Elliot's name. Needing him to satisfy me, only to find that he wasn't there.

I tossed and turned in bed. It seemed like every sleeping positon I tried, she refused to let me rest. Because she was always in my back, she put pressure on my bladder and I had to constantly get up at night to pee. I was ready for her to be born already. I was exhausted from carrying her weight around.

Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to roll out of bed and head to the nursery, which was completely furnished and painted pink and white. Classic. Decorating the nursery kept my mind occupied and my focus away from Elliot.

Amanda and Cregan secretly bought the baby a ton of clothes, which I needed to fold and put away. In a matter of weeks, my little girl would be resting in my arms and a piece of me and the man I love would walk the earth.

I sat on the floor Indian style and grabbed a pile of clothes to fold. "I know you're all snuggled in there," I spoke to the baby. I felt her kick. "I really wish your father could be here. I miss him so much. So, so much."

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*Elliot's POV*

I craved Olivia. Needed to touch her, hold her. Be near her. Breathe in her scent and show her how much I loved her.

Three months ago, Olivia left. I've wondered if she left just to get back at me or if she left for good. But whatever the case I missed her. I've sat outside her apartment every night since our break up, trying to find the testicles to walk up there and get her back. Or maybe I did it just to make sure she was okay. I even went as far as walking up to her apartment and standing outside her door for twenty minutes before I decided I couldn't do it.

I've picked up my phone countless times and called her from a private number so she wouldn't know it was me. I couldn't take the chance of calling her from my cell phone because she most likely wouldn't answer. But every time she answered, I hung up. I couldn't bring myself to do it and after exactly five call-and-hang-ups, she stopped answering.

I've prayed and cried that we'd miraculously run into each other on the street and believe me, I've tried to make that happen. But every time I saw her face, I'd turn the other and after a month, I gave up because when I saw her walking and laughing with Blake, I saw her belly. She was pregnant. Pregnant with someone's baby. I knew it couldn't have possibly been mine because she would have told me. Liv always wanted a baby and God bless the man that gave it to her because she looked happy. Not play happy but truly happy and if being out of her life made her that way, then I'd stay away forever. Olivia and Blake's happiness meant the world to me.

Lord knows I missed Blake. She was like and daughter to me. No matter how much she gave me the cold shoulder or pushed me away, I loved her like my own.

Every day, I dreaded going to work. Of Olivia wasn't there, I didn't want to be there. I knew Cregan knew way more than he would tell me but I couldn't pry it out of him; no matter now much I tried. The place was just so.... dead.

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*Blake's POV*

Every since Bentley picked me up three months ago, we've grown a lot closer. I confide in him about a lot of things and I felt like I could tell him anything. He understands me in a way that no one else could. Olivia, of course, wasn't too fond of us dating, no matter how much she forced a smile or told me that 'if I'm happy, she's happy.'

 I spent most of my time with him at school or with Sam, who'd had her baby already. October 15, 3:46 in the morning, Indie Rosalinda Rodriguez. Eight pounds, seven ounces. Beautiful blonde hair and sparking green eyes, just like Sam's. The first time I held her, I fell in love an I was officially deemed Auntie Blake. But... after a week, Sam's mom forced her to give the baby up for adoption. I loved that baby like she was mine. Indie brought so much joy to Sam. Unspeakable joy and Indie was ripped right from her arms. My arms. Our arms. We cried for several days straight. We'd planned so much for her. Boyfriends, schools, clothes and it was all gone in a matter of hours. Since her dad spent so much time running his law firm, me and Olivia had to be the ones to comfort Sam and be there for her and we didn't mind one bit. 

I didn't spend much time at the precinct like I originally planned to do because Olivia always had an excuse as to why I couldn't go. The only time I saw Amanda was when I spent the weekend at her house or when she came over to help Olivia out. I was confused as to why Cregan was allowed over and not the rest of the squad. Olivia said it was because he keeps an eye on her ad he's just like a father. 

I was so upset that Olivia and Elliot broke up. I knew that he made her happy and she made him happy. She just wasn't herself and I wasn't sure if it was hormones from being pregnant or if it was due to the absence of Elliot. I tried to distance myself enough to avoid her wrath or handing her a box of tissues that just so happened to be near a tub of ice cream.

To be completely honest, I didn't know if I wanted the baby here or not. I didn't want her to take away my mommy. All the attention went to her and her nursery she hadn't even gotten here yet. But like Olivia always told me, if she was happy, then I'm happy.

*Author's Note*

Aright guys. I posted two updates because these chapters are short compared to all the rest. Comment what you think and what you guys want to see! Hold on because things are about to get pretty rocky!

-Lee