{COMPLETED} Amnesia [Luke Hemmings and Lauren Jauregui] // Lukeren

7. MTV VMA

Again, I am sorry for my awful grammar and spellings. XD I will be editing this when I am done with this book. :*

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Luke

After having to pretend I was enjoying Kiis takeover, we are back in our suite. Thankfully, the boys didn't even bother me and just allowed me to enter our room in piece. The room was dark. The only thing shining are the lights from the outside and my phone that wouldn't stop blinking.

I called her earlier and cried so hard telling her how much it hurts to see Lauren with another guy. To see her happy with another guy. It sucks. It hurts so bad. She told me everything is going to fine.. That in time, the pain would go away. But I didn't believe her. Not even my mom could heal the pain Lauren have caused. Not even anyone I thought could.. Not anyone that matters.

I grabbed my phone and scrolled twitter. They are still a hot topic and fuck this side of me being so fucking curious about her life, I scrolled and found a video. Their performance together. Wow.. I should post our Everything Has Changed cover to get all this people to be aware that she is mine. But she is not mine anymore... She WAS mine.. I sighed and carried on watching. That smile.. There is something missing in there.. Her eyes.. The way she scrunch her nose. And the fuck just happened? Why would he sneak towards her and be that close yet she just let him? I groan loudly. The tears I have been fighting to let out streams down my eyes. I wish I could forget about her. I wish I could... I hope I could. I stared at the door that is slowly opening and the boys went in quietly.

"Your girls are coming?" I asked to break the awkward silence in the room as I let the tears fall.

"No.." Ashton answered shaking his head.

"We told them not to.. We saw it to Luke.. Before you did.." Michael said making me sob so loud. I have to get it out.

Calum hugs me, "You have to let her go now Luke. She is happy.."

No, she is not.. I know she is not.. I know she is not.. But why do I feel like she is starting to be happy? Why do I feel like I should get over her now. Why do I feel like this is the time when I should finally accept I totally lost her.

"You are suffering when you should be enjoying.." Michael said quietly, "You are like our little brother already.. It sucks seeing you like this."

I sob loudly as my mind came to a decision which my heart doesn't really like.. I'll give up on her now.. She's happy.. I should be.. I should try to be happy.

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I took a break on Twitter. Well, I tweet.. But I don't scroll my feeds or any trending topics. My hand would quickly search for her tags but my mind would scold me before I could even do it. I put my phone down..

"We are nominated!!! And we are performing!!!" Michael came in screaming like an idiot along with the other two idiots with him, "What?! Aren't you fucking crazy? We are nominated for MTV VMA's Artist to Watch and Best Lyric Video!!!"