Guys, I'm going to be real with you: I probably won't be writing fanfic in college.
Maybe I will. Who knows. But for now, it remains a 'probably not'.
Which leaves me with 2 years, ~2 months, and however many days of summer I have free senior year before I'm off to college.
I had a whole 3 paragraphs about how busy I am this summer and junior and senior year and all the AP classes I wanna take and SAT stuff and blah blah but. Just know that I'm doing A Whole Lot More Stuff this summer, junior year, and senior year. Less free time. More classwork and clubs and volunteering and projects and extracurriculars.
Also... writing this final stretch of Invisible Crown is really hard. I'm loosing interest in SVTFOE not gonna lie, season 3 and 4 are just frustrating. And I'm loosing interest in my own fic too. I actually kind of hate it, and no matter where I look I see the problems and plot holes. I have no motivation. I take WAY too long between chapters and I hate it. The only reason why I write is a) to say I finished a fic and b) because if I didn't, you guys would be sad. Which would make me sad.
So.
I've come to a Conclusion.
and I kind of hate it.
the Conclusion is: After Invisible Crown, I'm done with writing fanfic chapter by chapter.
For now, at least. I don't think that format is good for me. I loose motivation fast. I need to write it all before publishing. (Which is what I may do with my ML video game AU I posted a chapter on a while back, or with Red String Seer).
Like, I wrote 10k words of my ML/SVTFOE AU. 10k. I think in like... 2 or 3 weeks? Over the summer a while ago? 2017 summer? It was great!! I enjoyed myself writing that way more than I did any chapter of Invisible Crown besides the early ones. So I think, if I ever pick up writing a long fanfic again, i will have to recreate that situation. (Not going back to that AU though. That's for a different person with more writing capabilities than me, lol. I'll still publish the stuff I have if you want, though!)
I'll still post oneshots. Here and on ao3, ya know, whenever the inspiration strikes.
Another thing, though, which is kind of what I think will be more upsetting.
Besides Red String Seer and oneshots, I'm not going to write for SVTFOE anymore.
I don't even know if I want to write Red String Seer. It's just so old and really takes place in season 2-season 3. I'll try over the summer, but I think I'll just get bored.
Aside from that... I have no other fic ideas for the show, and I'm kind of sick of writing for it ngl. The only ideas I have that are in contention to be written are the ML video game AU and some longer TDP or SPOP oneshots or two-shots, maybe max 5k words.
I think I've been going through a burnout. Since, like, high school started. Fic just isn't my main focus anymore. I have other stuff I wanna do.
As for what else I'll be doing online for the rest of my schooling, I'm really not sure. Not so much art, though I do like updating my art book+have an animatic planned (note the word PLANNED lol). I like getting into the meta, and I want to be active on Tumblr more. And I have an idea for an incredibly ambitious SVTFOE salt-related project (ask me about the details lol i dare u). Soooo, that?
The thing is, my desired career path (science: general biology, plant/agro stuff, medicine, environmental science or psychology) is so fundamentally different from fandom stuff. So while some fandom creators go on to be writers or artists or work in the industry, I'm just going to have this as a hobby. An outlet. Something to use as an escape from pursuing my dreams (because truly, I LOVE science, and it is 100% what I want to do for the rest of my life, and I WANT to work a full-time job and pay for myself and do what I love and help the world).
I don't want to be one of those people who disappear from online completely, but I fear when I go to college I'll have to. Or sooner.
And I know I'm bad about it, but I'll let you guys know.
(but like... I might stop using Wattpad. I just... ao3 is so much better. At some point though. Not now.)
Either way, the rest of this year and the summer will be the same, if more active because I want invisible crown DONE before the school year ends and over the summer I have more IC related stuff and that super secret maybe project I mentioned earlier.
So, uh....
I really don't know how to end this.
Thanks for sitting through it all.
- Bridget
(aka Bee)
(woah name reveal)
(ahaha i bet i tricked u all into thinking i'm named Beatrice but youRE WRONG MY NAME IS BRIDGET HOW R U)
(anyway it's rlly weird seeing my name in the wattpad font and i may edit this later to get rid of my name but WHO CARES IM ALMOST SIXTEEN I REALLY DONT NEED TO HIDE MY REAL NAME ANYMORE)
(GOODBYE EVERYONE, THANKS FOR READING THIS, SEEYA NEXT TIME BYEEE)
