Black Demon's Witness (Black butler fanfic)

Chapter 26: Sick of Games

- "Bye Jae!!!!" Matilda called after me. I watched her enter the carriage and forced a smile. She had never called me Jae before. Hearing her say my name made me feel happy, but watching leave made my heart feel as if it were withering away. "Just cry. It's okay." Anthony held me tightly as I cried into his chest. He stroked my hair gently and whispered in my ear.

"I'm sure she'll miss you as much as you'll miss her." His words stuck to me and my tears stopped. How does he know anything? How? -

"Jae. Jae!" I heard a voice call me from my dream. I slowly opened my eyes and found Anthony beside my bed. His hand was over my forehead. "Anthony?" I called lazily. Anthony rubbed my forehead and sighed. " You don't look too good. Are you sick?" He asked. I looked around blankly and frowned. My head felt dizzy and my nose felt as if the insides were burning. I guess I was sick, and I didn't even realize it. "I can't be sick.. I can't..." Suddenly I felt a quick inhale come over me and I sneezed. My head began to spin, and I held my head in pain. "Take it easy, okay?" Anthony called. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. He gently pushed me back down and sighed heavily. "I'll take care of anything you need." He said and smiled down at me. What? What did she just say?

"No, it's fine. I'll just call Sebastian.." I coughed harshly and covered my mouth. "I'm afraid Sebastian left with Madame Maddie for the town." Anthony explained. I looked up in surprise and clenched my fists. How could they have left me like that? Why of all people did Sebastian leave my side, even after I specifically told him not to!? That idiot! Anthony placed his hand over my head again and pouted. "You should stay in bed." He said. "But I-"

Anthony placed his right index finger over my lips, hushing me instantly. "No excuses. Just let me take care of you." Anthony whispered and I was swept away into silence. It was like he had cast a spell on me. Why was that? The main question is, why did Sebastian leave my side!? And with Maddie. Why didn't Maddie say anything? Anthony grabbed a teapot from the cart and filled it with warm water. I watched him closely, wondering if he knew anything about what he was doing. He dropped the tea leaves into the teapot and added two small scoops of sugar. Apparently he knows what he's doing. He poured the tea into a teacup and sat on the bed. "Here you go."

I grabbed the teacup and held it to my lips. As I sipped the tea, its flavor warmed my tongue, and I smiled. "It's great." I said. Anthony smiled happily. "Glad you like it." Anthony watched me carefully as I finished the delicious tea. When I looked up at him, his smile grew bigger. My head felt fuzzy again, and I frowned. "Ow.." I cried and sat the cup on my night stand. Anthony came closer and cupped my face in his hands. "You're getting hotter. I'll run you a bath." He stood up and walked into the bathroom. He was so worried about me. I wonder what came over him? Maybe I was wrong about how rude he was, unlike how he's acting now. Guess things change like that everyday. Anthony came back with a towel over his shoulder. "You don't need my help to get into the bath, do you?" He asked. I shook my head, feeling my face burn. He laid the towel next to me on the bed. "Alright, take your bath. I'll see what I can help out with around the manor." Anthony said. "Thank you!" I called as he left my room.

I slowly got out of bed and walked into the restroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed. I did look sick.

My eyes were red, possibly from crying all night, my nose was also red, and my throat felt itchy. I looked terrible. I sighed heavily and began to unbutton my gown. I held onto the edges of the tub and gently stepped in. The warm water felt wonderful as I sat inside the tub. I hid my body under the bubbles and stared at the ceiling.

Why Sebastian?

Why are you playing with my head?

Blasted Demon! I squirted the water through my hands in anger at the mirror. The water splattered against the mirror and slid down onto the sink.

My soul..

That's all he's after. He wears a mask that makes you forget what he is. What he is.. a demon that takes ones soul without hesitation, without a thought. How could I be so stupid? As if a demon would have feelings for a human. A normal, weak and useless human. I sunk my head under the water and closed my eyes. I felt my body become completely covered in warmth as I sunk in the tub. To think that Anthony was still here to take care of me. He worried about me.. I wonder what's gotten into him? What about Daniel? Where was he? Last time I saw him, he was talking to the Undertaker about Kristen's coffin. He must be going through a lot since Kirsten was his cousin that he was suppose to marry. I came above the water to take another breath of air and sunk back to the bottom.

Oh how I missed Matilda. Seeing her beautiful smile and watching her play in the garden. She was the first child I had ever cared for as a guardian. But alas, I am too engulfed in my imagination of having a daughter or son than in reality. Time is short, yet I can't speed up time with a wave of a hand.

I closed my eyes and rose back to the surface of the water. My eyes closed and I felt myself drift away into a dream.

-I was in the ocean. The crystal blue waters surrounded me, and I soon sunk down. "Sebast-!!" I couldn't breathe. I accidentally gulped down the water as I tried to call his name. Then I saw him, Sebastian hovering above me. He was smiling down at me as I drowned under the water. Save me, you idiot!! Suddenly I'm pulled up to the surface and everything went white.-

"Jae!!" I heard Anthony's voice and I coughed up water. I was still in the tub. I coughed up water and tried to catch my breath. "I called your name outside the restroom, but you didn't answer." Anthony explained. I lied back in the tub and covered myself in bubbles. "I was..was..asleep?" I asked myself aloud. Anthony sighed heavily. "I'm just glad your alright. You could've drowned yourself if I wasn't here." Anthony caressed my cheek and smiled. My heart skipped a beat at his touch, and I bit my bottom lip. Suddenly our eyes met and my heart felt ready to explode. I had never seen such light brown eyes before, unlike my dark brown eyes. He was a different race than me though. I don't really know his race, but I know it's not African American like me. Anthony looked at me with shimmering eyes and I couldn't look away. "Jae. Are you sure you're alright?" He asked. I nodded. He cupped my face in his hands again and leaned forward.

Wait.

"Anthony!" I called.

"Anthony! Wait!"

The restroom door clicked open and we froze.

It was Sebastian.

His eyes were wide in surprise and he stopped in his tracks. Bad timing, as always. "Sebastian...?" I called with a weak voice. Anthony removed his hands from my face and quickly left the restroom. Sebastian looked down at me and I rolled my eyes.

"I wish Anthony had let me drown." I mumbled. Sebastian frowned. I guess he heard me, for he wouldn't stop looking at me. "What? Anthony isn't evil, so calm yourself!" I said.

I was sick literally and sick of these games. No one loves me! It's all fake! Why can't I bring myself to believe that? I wrapped a towel around my body and turned to Sebastian.

"This is an order! Leave me alone for two days!" I exclaimed. Sebastian tensed up and clenched the doorknob tightly. "Yes, Madame Jae." He left the restroom, and I felt my head go dizzy again. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were red and my face looked like I had seen a ghost. Tears welled up in my eyes. I'm sick of it all.

Anthony doesn't love me as I am!

I don't even know him.

Sebastian doesn't love me at all! I'm just his dinner and I can tell he grows hungrier every time he looks at me. Tears flooded my eyes and fell from my face. "No one....is to talk to me...in two days.." I told myself.

I will not be controlled again.